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N. A. · 2mo
Tell us a bit about your birth chart. I know you know everything. I sent you an e-mail.
i’m terrible at remembering anything astrology related.
all i know is that every time someone describes pisces it’s either “deeply emotional dreamer” or “absolute menace to society” and apparently i’m supposed to be both.
i think i’ve got libra in there somewhere, which i’m told explains why i spend half my life trying to see things from every angle before making a decision. and every time u look at my chart u end up telling me i was born to do something creative, which is honestly one of my favourite things to hear because it feels reassuring.
i can never remember what sagittarius is doing in there. i think it’s my moon? maybe my rising? genuinely no idea. i just know sagittarius always sounds like somebody who bought a plane ticket five minutes ago and is somehow already at the airport.
but the parts that do sound like me are the dreaming, living in my own head a bit too much and having an imagination that refuses to leave me alone.
the rest of it i’ll leave to u because u clearly know what’s going on far more than i do.
N. A. · 2mo
A childhood memory you carry dearly to this day.
i feel like most of the memories i keep closest from childhood have some huge story attached to them, but one of the simplest ones is still my favourite.
my dad used to take me to my grandad’s house and there was this lake with a tyre swing hanging from a tree above the water. we’d spend hours swinging out over the lake and throwing ourselves into it.
i’ve always loved summer, and all that sort of thing, so every year i’d spend months waiting for those days to come back around.
looking back, it was such a simple thing, but at the time it felt like the greatest thing in the world.
N. A. · 2mo
Who made you the emo kid you are?
i think i listened to so much pantera and type o negative growing up because i loved everything they represented.
i hated the idea of not being allowed to be who i was, and there was something about that music that felt completely uncompromising. it felt like freedom, even when it was ugly, angry or self destructive.
and yeah, there was a lot of anger there too. anger at the world, my parents, life, myself, whatever happened to be in front of me that day.
so from a very young age i connected with it deeply and i still love it to death.
celeste · 2mo
what is your favorite movie and why?
i’d probably say requiem for a dream directed by darren aronofsky.
i showed it to my old guitarist once when we were rolling hard and when it finished he just looked at me and went, “why the fuck would u show me that?”
i think the film is brutally honest about addiction and dependency and the way people slowly build their lives around something that’s actively destroying them. just watching people disappear into something they can’t control anymore.
i’ve dealt with my own versions of that sort of thing, so it’s always felt like a film that understands the psychology of it better than most.
also i sampled it for a song once, which probably tells u everything u need to know.
N. A. · 2mo
Favorite thing about your siblings ;)
with u, nora, i think part of it comes from the fact i literally watched u grow up. i was already a teenager when u were still a kid and even back then u had this strong sense of who u were. smart at school, obsessed with music and films from a very young age, and i still think it’s funny that one of ur earliest memories is watching cleopatra with our grandma and remembering little flashes of it for years afterwards. feels very nora. i always describe u as this lilac and silver sort of soul because there’s something naturally magnetic about u, but i think what stands out most is how unapologetically yourself u’ve always been. once u decide u want something for yourself, there’s no person on earth capable of convincing u that u don’t deserve it. honestly i think u’ve been fighting for yourself like that since u were born. i’ve always admired that about u and i think being around someone so certain of themselves shapes u without u even realising it.
with ciara it’s different because we practically grew up side by side. there’s only a few years between us. she’s got this incredibly free spirit but at the same time she’s deeply introverted. she doesn’t waste energy trying to explain herself and there’s something very untouchable about her peace. she’s always creating something, writing, making art, disappearing into films, planning journeys in her head before they even exist physically. there’s something very wanderlust about her spirit. she just pays attention. to people, to feelings, to silence. we’ve always had so much in common and every time we’re together we end up laughing until we can barely breathe. if i had to describe her in colours i’d probably say white, grey, dark pink and black. she smells like blueberries in the rain and old yellow book pages.
N. A. · 2mo
Something take makes you feel really spiritual and connected to something higher?
seeing the moon and the sun existing together, completing each other, makes me feel connected to something bigger than myself for a minute. and whenever i look up there i sort of quietly hope that whatever unknown force exists out there gives us better days eventually.
bit personal maybe, but i’ve always felt understood by the sky.
N. A. · 2mo
Is there any country you really want to visit? Why's that?
absolutely dying to go to tulum because i keep seeing those caves and waterfalls and whatever the fuck those places are.
i really love the sun, summer, heat, all of that. think i could spend weeks there shirtless just swimming around, eating fruit and letting the sun completely destroy my skin because i hate sunscreen and apparently enjoy making terrible decisions.
N. A. · 2mo
You always say I'm like... lilac haze, silvery glitter, and orange scented. But what things would you say YOU are?
everyone around u would probably describe u as this glittery lilac sort of soul.
me though… bit harder to explain. think i’m mostly grey with flashes of deep blue and blood red underneath it all. like rain clouds right before everything properly collapses or clears.
would probably smell like burnt cinnamon and wet earth after heavy rain.
not sad grey either. just that in-between colour where everything’s constantly shifting.
N. A. · 2mo
Tell me more about a piece of media that had such an impact on your brain that truly changed your way of thinking and/or your perception of something.
i’ll probably say paris, texas by wenders.
it really taps into that whole “wherever u go, there u are” idea. u can change your surroundings, your life, disappear for years, become somebody else entirely, but eventually u still run into yourself again.
and i think one of the biggest struggles in my life has probably been trying to escape myself in one way or another, so i connected to it quite deeply because of that.
also it’s long as fuck and somehow still feels like it passes in ten minutes because u get so emotionally locked into it all.
N. A. · 2mo
What was your favorite book that you read with your beautiful wife?
think she got through something like ninety books in a weirdly short amount of time while i read basically nothing.
this is how you lose the time war which is one of her favourite books ever. red and blue writing letters to each other across this war through time and space. beautiful.
i think one of the nicest things about loving someone is entering their world for a bit and slowly understanding that these things are part of why they are who they are.
we also read a bolsa amarela together, which we fully intend on making our future children read one day because it’s such a beautiful story about not belonging anywhere, growing up and carrying fears u don’t really know how to explain yet.
so yeah. probably those ones.