Bro, get over yourself. Like for real. If you really did look up to me you would know that I wouldn't put up with some sniveling shit like this. If you really looked up to me you wouldn't do the shit that would piss me off. I have no idea who you even are. Like if someone asked me to guess I wouldn't fuckin' know. That should tell you how important impressing me is; which apparently is what you think you need to do.

Sometimes people just don't get along. That's fucking fine. I don't have to be friends with everyone, just like you don't have to be friends with me. I'm sure you have plenty of other people who like you. Maybe we're just oil and water! I've met plenty of people like that! And you know what? We just went our separate ways, and we were both better off for it. Nobody felt like their life was over because we couldn't get along.

And if you don't have other people who like you? Think about what the common denominator is. Look inward. Change your behavior.

If you really did look up to me, you'd know I would look at you and tell you to stop being a pussy.

With that criteria, it's Death Race 2000 (1975), in a walk. People know that as the Ashely Movie Of All Time. It's campy b-movie bullshit, it's racing, it's gory, and one of those "it's a fucking miracle that this movie got made with the shoestring budget we had" movies. Fundamental movie for me that I loved even more watching again as an adult, because now it's beyond "wow, cool murder car" and more "wow, actually yeah this movie has a lot to say about hero worship and patriotism and how both are utter bullshit."

Honorable mention goes to The Shout (1978) which was recommended by Martin Conditionbleen. Just a really weird and bizarre movie that absolutely makes good on the promise of the title.

It's changed a few times. Lately I've really REALLY enjoyed playing minecraft together.

There's a lot to that, because it's a server that we worked together to set up. I handled the actual serverside installation (which involved using FTP and installing stuff via a linux command line) and she handled picking out and organizing the mods we were gonna use. It was a team project that was a lot of fun to troubleshoot and fix up together, and the fact that it was something we did together meant a lot to me.

Then when we switched from a Fabric server to a Neoforge server, it became a whole new project that we were better at. Plus, when we were playing our strengths/weaknesses/interests perfectly intersected. Anything she didn't like to do, I'd do. And she'd do things I had no interest in. It's so fucking great.

But the all-timer is Soul Calibur 1. Soul Calibur got us here, and it'll hold a special place in my heart because of that.

Kacey just... calms me. I always feel at peace around her.

She also understands me in a way people haven't before. She listens to me talk, and a lot of the time is able to help me understand what I'm talking about in new ways that I'd never thought of before.

She also makes me feel so comfortable with things being... quiet. There have been plenty of times where there was no tv, no music, no sound going on whatsoever and we just were sitting quietly in each other's presence. I don't even do that when I'm by myself. But just, her prescence brings me a level of peace I've never felt before.

What I like the most about her is that she's making me feel ways I've never felt before, in so many different directions. And for that, I'm so glad she's in my life.