It's changed a few times. Lately I've really REALLY enjoyed playing minecraft together.

There's a lot to that, because it's a server that we worked together to set up. I handled the actual serverside installation (which involved using FTP and installing stuff via a linux command line) and she handled picking out and organizing the mods we were gonna use. It was a team project that was a lot of fun to troubleshoot and fix up together, and the fact that it was something we did together meant a lot to me.

Then when we switched from a Fabric server to a Neoforge server, it became a whole new project that we were better at. Plus, when we were playing our strengths/weaknesses/interests perfectly intersected. Anything she didn't like to do, I'd do. And she'd do things I had no interest in. It's so fucking great.

But the all-timer is Soul Calibur 1. Soul Calibur got us here, and it'll hold a special place in my heart because of that.

Kacey just... calms me. I always feel at peace around her.

She also understands me in a way people haven't before. She listens to me talk, and a lot of the time is able to help me understand what I'm talking about in new ways that I'd never thought of before.

She also makes me feel so comfortable with things being... quiet. There have been plenty of times where there was no tv, no music, no sound going on whatsoever and we just were sitting quietly in each other's presence. I don't even do that when I'm by myself. But just, her prescence brings me a level of peace I've never felt before.

What I like the most about her is that she's making me feel ways I've never felt before, in so many different directions. And for that, I'm so glad she's in my life.

First off the laugh and how stupid it is. Incredibly obnoxious, and its so asinine how holding the hand in front of the mouth is.

They're also a type of spoiled brat/elitist character, which always goes one of two ways. One, you see that they're insecure and are actually a good and decent person, but they're just so caught up with appearances and not wanting people to get close to them. So they self-sabotage. They intentionally isolate themselves at the top of the social strata and don't let others up there. It's not because they hate people, it's because they hate themselves and don't want to interrogate it when people actually want to be friends. It's simpler and easier to just be aloof and alone. Believe it or not, I find that really relatable.

The second is that they actually ARE a piece of shit, and 100% of the time they end up being humbled in the funniest/most extreme way.

I think no matter the circumstances I think your gender is valid if you’re happy with it.

Like, how we get to what our gender is can be anything. Sometimes its trauma, and how to deal with that trauma. Sometimes someone won’t be able to explore their gender if they dont have a safe space to do so. I think all the time about people who live in conservative areas and never even have a chance to think about their gender, but for some reason they always feel uneasy.

I also think experimentation with gender as a coping mechanism is great! Give yourself a vacation from how you currently are. Try on a new identity. Get Weird with it, or get Extemely Regular but Different with it.

The best part about gender is you can always go back. Experimentation is wildly important because you never know if you dont try. If you dont like it? Hey, that’s cool! Now you know! You’ve done more introspection about your gender than 99% of people, and now have a new perspective on it. The worse case scenario is now you know FOR SURE that youre cis.

At the end of the day the concept of gender is fucking made up and you can do whatever you want. There are cultures across the world with wildly different concepts of gender. To restrict yourself to just being the Man Or Woman you were born as is fucking boring. Live a little. Shave your head. Put on a skirt. Do some wild shit. You might surprise yourself.

I use a Wacom Intuos 3 6x8 drawing tablet that I have had since 2007. It's a workhorse, sturdy, and has done well for me. Almost everything I've ever made digitally was made on this thing.

I had a Monoprice tablet that I used for a little while that worked fine, and kinda actually helped me with my transition from traditional art to digital, as the surface on it was toothier and felt a little closer to what I was used to. However, the pen did require batteries where the wacom pen does not.

Third-party tablets (both drawing and screen ones) work fine for the most part, but take a little extra wrangling to get the software working just right in windows. Wacom, due to being pretty much the industry standard, has much better software that works a lot easier, though you do pay a premium for their products.

Having used both, and having somewhat of a tech background, I will say Wacom is very much worth it. Even if tinkering with drivers to get a third-party one working right is do-able, a Wacom is just so much easier to deal with, with a lot fewer headaches.

Take this with a grain of salt, however. I'm not 100% on how their more modern products are because, as stated before, my tablet is from 2007 so that's the only one I can truly vouch for.

oh she made the first move. she gets full credit on that.

I was in heavy denial about my feelings. That was the play for me for years. If I felt like I had feelings for somebody I'd just ignore them and bury them until they went away. I always had excuses why a relationship "wouldn't work".

Hanging out with Kacey I definitely felt feelings percolating and I did my damndest to ignore them. I didn't go so far as to cut off spending time with her because I was having such a good time during a period where I honestly was incredibly stressed out. There were several moments where I was like "fuck... do I? oh fucking god DAMMIT"

I kept it to myself. I didn't tell anybody about it. I'm sure people assumed things but I just kept to myself hoping that I'd just move past it like I always did. But kacey cornered me and I had to confront my feelings. And whoops, turns out I like her a lot.