talking about ideas alone, i've wanted to delve into something like vampire or supernatural politics. or grueling, relentless and filthy war. but i'm not well-read or well-equipped on how to go about that, i'd need to bounce some ideas off of folks to get my inspiration going. anything grim and existential with power dynamics i'm 1000% there for

but there's one wip of mine that comes to mind as a "dream fic", Tranquilized. i've posted snippets of it before and i love the mood set and prose. it's bleak and psychological, has transhumanism themes. the setting is in a desert region but it's so godawfully cold. not literally. the sun is always scorching. but everyone keeps to themselves and are distrustful, common buildings are in ruin, and the wealthy live in spires of perfect, pristine white with clinical technological interiors. i'm eager to continue writing it, but i need to finish the anime it's inspired by first lol (Texhnolyze). and i haven't been in the mood to finish it for a bit. eventually!!

the honest answer is i don't. i let it drag me under until i choke, and i want to be there in that miserable headspace as much as i want to get out. there are certainly healthier options for managing sadness, i often transmute it into my writing at a seperate time (when i feel better), usually in the form of rinse and repeat comfort fics/tropes, where i can project myself onto the character that is being comforted and taken care of. but for me all that really is is dissociation, i don't really process things well. or at all. but i always try to identify the root of why i'm feeling that way, the emotional wound that hasn't been dressed yet. i value knowing why i feel certain ways or have certain reactions. when i feel up to it i occasionally talk with my best friend too. talking with someone can smooth over the burden of enduring those difficult emotions. it's enough to get me by.

i hope you're doing alright, anon. make sure to keep yourself hydrated and well-fed. it helps more than you think or feel