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seonghwa-biased weirdo
writiny. occasional artiny
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faceless · 1mo
what have you been listening to lately?
mostly sludge/doom metal, specifically Windhand and Chained to the Bottom of the Ocean. Predatory Void too. i haven't been doing great at all, and when i'm not mentally sound or am just severely exhausted music is hard or impossible to listen to. i usually opt for ambient/drone instead because it's absolute bare minimum, but sludge and doom have slower tempos and are usually repetitive + long, so there is significantly less mental effort required for listening. the genres are also great at conveying destructive, sisyphean emotions in both lyrical and audio form, which makes it even more of a comfort genre for me
faceless · 2mo
is there a dream fic you want to write but haven't yet?
talking about ideas alone, i've wanted to delve into something like vampire or supernatural politics. or grueling, relentless and filthy war. but i'm not well-read or well-equipped on how to go about that, i'd need to bounce some ideas off of folks to get my inspiration going. anything grim and existential with power dynamics i'm 1000% there for
but there's one wip of mine that comes to mind as a "dream fic", Tranquilized. i've posted snippets of it before and i love the mood set and prose. it's bleak and psychological, has transhumanism themes. the setting is in a desert region but it's so godawfully cold. not literally. the sun is always scorching. but everyone keeps to themselves and are distrustful, common buildings are in ruin, and the wealthy live in spires of perfect, pristine white with clinical technological interiors. i'm eager to continue writing it, but i need to finish the anime it's inspired by first lol (Texhnolyze). and i haven't been in the mood to finish it for a bit. eventually!!
faceless · 3mo
what's a formative interest or fandom you had?
i was a fan of a specific 7 member boy group before they stopped caring about their music and stopped caring in general. i have a plethora of old wips of them i'll transmute someday. i was never active in that or any fandom though like i am now with ateez. another is Supernatural, but since writing in-character is difficult for me i only have some of a Dean x non-biblical demon OC fic. drew and posted some my little pony characters back in my middle school days too lol
faceless · 3mo
how do you deal with sadness?
the honest answer is i don't. i let it drag me under until i choke, and i want to be there in that miserable headspace as much as i want to get out. there are certainly healthier options for managing sadness, i often transmute it into my writing at a seperate time (when i feel better), usually in the form of rinse and repeat comfort fics/tropes, where i can project myself onto the character that is being comforted and taken care of. but for me all that really is is dissociation, i don't really process things well. or at all. but i always try to identify the root of why i'm feeling that way, the emotional wound that hasn't been dressed yet. i value knowing why i feel certain ways or have certain reactions. when i feel up to it i occasionally talk with my best friend too. talking with someone can smooth over the burden of enduring those difficult emotions. it's enough to get me by.
i hope you're doing alright, anon. make sure to keep yourself hydrated and well-fed. it helps more than you think or feel
faceless · 4mo
by sick i mean cool!!! positivethinhg !!
faceless · 4mo
ur one of the sickest ppl on tiny bsky
ty dear anon!! <3 i'm just so cool and perfect, the most interesting and sexy person alive. flippant arrogance aside lol, i'm greatly appreciative of the small space on bsky i have and the moots/followers that have interacted with/enabled me for awhile now. i love i'm able to have a nsfw outlet like i do and be amongst fellow freaks without judgement; i'm happy to be comfortable posting with people who also share that enthusiasm. thanks to any moots/followers who read this <3
OAT · 4mo
what kind of fic are you craving (to read) right now?
a psychological modern seongjoong or minhwa fic where things seem fine on the surface, people think they're happily dating but there's something off about seonghwa. hongjoon/mingi can't put a name on what is making him anxious borderline fearful around seonghwa but it's there. seonghwa's touches are a tad too forceful, just controlling enough to where no red flags rise – there's no reason to be set on edge but they just are
slimy and manipulative seonghwa is one of my favorite genres of him, super underutilized