Dear XiaoXin!

I wish i could write you a letter… a real letter. Like the one i would write to ZC. Since i cannot do that, i’m going to write here instead. I have already communicated with you in here before. But i still have so much to say to you.

As much as ZC make me feel all kinds of emotions, i have realised, that your presence in this fandom makes me feel all the same emotions. I’ve been part of different fandoms before, but in none of those fandoms have i found a fellow fan, who’s presence makes me feel so welcomed. I don’t paticulary feel close to this fandom too… not anymore 😞. But to find at least one person, who makes me feel like i belong, means the world to me. For me, that person is you. I don’t even know why that is. Is it because you show so much love and respect for ZC? Or is it because i see how you treat other fans with so much kindness? I think it’s all of that. The way you are willing to listen to different opinions and how you are able to understand others points of views without forcing your own on them… i wish more people were like you. I often think that fans have a lot to learn from their artists. Amongst everyone in our fandom, you are the one, who radiates the same kindness, the same warmth, the same kind of compassion, that our beloved ZC do. I can see why you are so drawn to them. Like ZX has said many times “people on the same wavelength always find a way to each other”. I want to thank you for explaining everything to us, who don’t understan chinese, so that we can be a little bit on ease, when things get difficult. I want to thank you for always being so positive, because when you love someone, it’s so easy to be constantly worried when things don’t go like they are supposed to. Don’t listen to those, who say you are too positive about certain situations. There’s no such thing as “too positive”. I want to thank you for your countless translations, that make me able to be the fan i am. Because of you i’m actually able to understand and see the world they want us to see. I can see the effort and hard work you put into building this bridge stronger and stronger to carry so many of us to ZC. Thank you for being the glue that keeps a lot of us together. Thank you for simply excisting together with us.

I hope you also have someone like you in this fandom, someone who makes you feel like you make me feel. I see how you get criticised so often for no reason at all. I hope you have someone, who can comfort you, like you have comforted us for so many times. I hope you know how incredibly wonterful you are. I hope you’ll be part of this fandom for many years to come.

I have thanked you for so many times already that i sound like broken radio. But thats i grateful i am to you ❤️ So here goes my letter to you. You don’t have to answer this if you don’t feel like it. At least i got to say what i have been wanting to say.

And thank you again, forever and always… 🩷💚