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Anonymous · 3mo
i love all your fics but what are some of YOUR fav fics?
Thank you, anon! 🥰
I have so many, but some some of them are Orchid by inexperiencedandconfused8 (it was my introduction to ATEEZ rps), sleep paralysis and low frequencies by Idrilka, Scum and Villainy, the days i prayed by tremulousbird, Formidable by naganoka, And We Were Roomates by starryhwx (ranithepirate) and everything ashestorm and outofthesunset will ever publish. ❤️
Anonymous · 15d
I apologise if I'm overstepping but I just wanted to say this one last thing - I don't know who or what in life has convinced you that you are undeserving of care and comfort from the people that you love, but I hope you are able to overcome that. Because I think the people who love you would not only disagree but they would also be very sad to hear that you think that. We all deserve love and care. x
Anonymous · 15d
I'm sure your feelings are very valid, but I do hope you are able to overcome them because I think you are putting out brilliant work and you should be very proud of it. It's clear that you work very hard on your stories, and people wouldn't be praising you so much if they thought otherwise.
And well if it's any consolation, I often feel like I am a burden too but whenever I actually reach out to my friends, I find that they are always ready and willing to help and listen. If your friend was struggling, wouldn't you want them to come to you for comfort? If you don't tell them what's on your mind, how can they know? People who truly value you, will want to be there for you especially when you're feeling low. And if they don't, then who even needs friends like that? x
The issue lies in the fact that I hold myself to high standards, I think. And it's the "what applies to me doesn't apply to you" situation. I'd be more than willing to be there for my friends, but I don't think the same should apply when I'm the one needing it. It's tricky, and I don't think it's going away anytime soon. But thank you so much ❤️
Anonymous · 15d
Heyy ml🥹 i loved the new chapter sooo muchhh i hope you don’t feel of it like a failure, it isn’t, really🫶 but if it can help you, everytime i explain tcd and bloomzd into you to my friend, she finds the story amazing but wonders why seonghwa always has such shit jobs lol🤣🤣
Hi! Thank you so much. ❤️
I tend to have very high expectations for myself, and everything that falls short is a failure for me—which ironically, I'd never set those expectations for anyone else but me, and I wouldn't call those who don't reach the expectations failures... Go figure! I appreciate your kind words. ❤️
Ahahah! Well, Seonghwa loves flowers in BIY!! So it was actually his dream eheh. Unless she's talking about the café job he had before becoming a florist?
And well, in TCD Seonghwa took the first thing that would pay him and allow him to study at the same time... but tell your friend it landed him a very hot mafia boyfriend so... it worked out 🙂↕️
Anonymous · 15d
How do you choose which character's POV you're going to write for a story? Like Star is from HJ, BIY & TCD is SH, do you prefer to write one or the other? Or is there another reason ? :)
Ah! This is a hard process for me because I don't feel skilled enough to execute a dual POV well, so I ultimately choose whose POV would be the most interesting for the story overall. It usually depends on which character goes through the most emotional turmoil/journey, I guess? Both for BIY and TCD I felt like following Seonghwa would be the most interesting for the readers; in Star, I felt like Hongjoong would be best!
I have no real preference — both my next projects will be written from Hongjoong's POV for example!
Anonymous · 15d
How come you feel the latest chapter is a failure? From the responses I've seen, everyone seems to have really loved it! What is making you feel that way?
As for the lost feeling, I'm sorry to hear that - I often feel lost too and it can be quite tough. Whatever is making you feel that way, I hope it resolves itself soon and I hope you feel better. Don't force yourself to do anything you don't want to do, let yourself rest when you need to. Reach out to your friends, go for a walk, maybe read a new fic rather than write one. And I'm sure eventually you will find your way. We're all cheering for you! x
Mhm, a lot of things make me feel that way about it! But I cannot really talk about it—it's stupid and wrong and a little entitled, too. I can't really find a good word for it, but I shouldn't feel that way—yet I do...
Thank you! I hope it does too. I've been trying to find my way for a long while, but I never seem to be able to land somewhere that is for me! I'm burdening my friends enough with that—I don't think anyone want to hear me whining anymore.
Thank you again. ❤️
Anonymous · 15d
Hey Amy how are you? I saw that you're planning to take a little social media break so just wanted to wish you well and hope you manage to rest. And just wanted to let you know the latest chapter of TCD was beautiful! x
Hi, anon! Thank you for asking. I feel a little off balance at the moment—a little lost, I guess? I'm finding a little hard to keep writing for some reason, and it's a little scary.
Thank you so much! I really needed to read that, actually. For some reason, I don't think I'm very happy with the latest chapter, and I kinda count it as a failure. 😅
Anonymous · 21d
Do you ever want to procrastinate so you don’t have to finish a work? Or perhaps even a fic you like? When I love longfics, specifically ones that have already been completed I tend to put off reading the last chapter for like a week because I don’t want it to end 😭 Do you ever feel that way when creating or consuming works? Or is it just a me thing lol 💀
Oh, anon... I've been procrastinating so much writing TCD! In fact, I am procrastinating right now... But I've procrastinated with writing the angst because I didn't want them to leave each other... and now I because I don't want it to end! It's a very weird thing because I feel very done with the story - I've been working on it for 8 months after all - but I don't want to move on either despite having projects Im very excited to work on!
It does happen when I read as well! I've just finished When The Tide Rolls In by Susimau and I never wanted it to end so it took me way too long to read the ending! 😭 Definitely not just a you thing 🙂↔️
Anonymous · 26d
I’m reading TCD again because the angst is just off the charts and I rarely feel this kind of emotion and longing when I read. Plus now I can read it again not feeling totally crushed and just enjoy the delicious conflict you crafted. (This may be my favorite fictional Seonghwa out of all the MATZ fiction I’ve read)
I think Chapter 9 ended perfectly, but I’m curious how you originally thought to end it. Thank you for writing, I’ve enjoyed everything you’ve published.
Hi! I’m very happy you can enjoy TCD know what the angst has been resolved. Thank you for taking the time to appreciate the story. ❤️
Borrowed Time (initially Liability) was supposed to have a scene where Hongjoong was supposed to be in Seoul on Christmas day (the day of their scheduled date) and was supposed to meet Seonghwa at the restaurant. So when the chauffeur picked Seonghwa up, and instead of driving him to the restaurant, he drove him to his apartment. When Seonghwa asked why they were there, the chauffeur answered that he had been given orders to take him there. Seonghwa tried to call Hongjoong and realized that he’d disconnected his number. I even had the ending sentence all planned out "Seonghwa loves Hongjoong, but here, standing all alone on the sidewalk, he realizes that Hongjoong actually never loved him back."
Oh, thank you so much! Im very glad you’re enjoying the stories I create. I hope you’ll enjoy the upcoming ones just as much. ❤️
Anonymous · 27d
What are your hobbies lately? Anything you enjoy and inspires you to keep going
It's a very hard question. It shouldn't be, but it is... Well, writing is my biggest hobby right now together with reading. I wish I had hobbies like knitting, or things that could help shut my brain up because I'd be so engrossed into what I'm doing that I don't have the time to overthink. I've been struggling a lot with finding myself and who I am outside of the roles I've been given to play in society, and that includes finding what I like. I used to play video games and work in esports, but now I'm focusing on trying to find my footing inside this world again. But I hope to find something that I do burn for one day, and I also hope you have hobbies like that as well. ❤️
Anonymous · 28d
Heyy! :) First of all, hope you are doing well!
And secondly, any advice to give on writers block or how to get back into writing fanfiction?
Your fanfics and many lovely others are so inspiring and good, that they are lowkey lighting the flame in me again to wanting to write my own and actually publishing them <3, though I am quite nervous about judgement or feedback and not sure about actually doing so
Hi, anon! Thank you for asking! I'm surviving, which is good enough -- I hope you're doing well yourself.
Oh, I'm sorry if you're experiencing a writer's block. The one I've had only lasted a few weeks, but they were very very annoying and frustrating.
Well, my first advice to that as someone who is still a very inexperienced writer would be to read, but you're already doing it. I'm very glad my work is one of those who are setting the flame alight again.
My other advice would be to find a trope that you like, or a prompt that speaks to you a lot and try to outline it for yourself, maybe? See how you would build the story for yourself as a bullet list. But most importantly, write something that speaks to you and write it for you, like indulge in self-indulgence (that's what I did with Star; it was totally self-indulgent ahah). You don't have to publish it, but maybe writing something like that could give you the push you need to start writing again?
I'm not sure if the fear of judgement goes away eventually -- at least it never did for me, but writing for myself has been a very good advice all my friends kept giving me. I was always thinking "what if the people reading don't like this or that" or "what if they think it's boring" and who cares? It's your story. You write it the way you want, with the characterization you want, and you write it for yourself, and if other people enjoy it, that's just a bonus!
One of my closest friends told me "worrying is the worst way to use you imagination", so I will say the same thing to you, anon. Use your beautiful imagination to create the stories you want. ❤️