I'm sure your feelings are very valid, but I do hope you are able to overcome them because I think you are putting out brilliant work and you should be very proud of it. It's clear that you work very hard on your stories, and people wouldn't be praising you so much if they thought otherwise.

And well if it's any consolation, I often feel like I am a burden too but whenever I actually reach out to my friends, I find that they are always ready and willing to help and listen. If your friend was struggling, wouldn't you want them to come to you for comfort? If you don't tell them what's on your mind, how can they know? People who truly value you, will want to be there for you especially when you're feeling low. And if they don't, then who even needs friends like that? x