Step 1: Decide to go to bed because it's getting late.
Step 2: Just finish this paragraph/linework/loop real quick.
Step 3: Damn, it's really late. One quick glance at fedi, but then.
Step 4: That was a dumb idea. OK, fine, now. -> bathroom stuff, falling into bed.
Step 5: Well, I'm tired af but can't sleep. Fiddlesticks (or something to that effect).
Step 6: Since I can't sleep, might as well get some gaming in.
Step 7: Finally get exhausted enough 1-2 hours later to actually fall into bed and stay there.

denial, bargain, acceptance. At the best of times, in that order. I had massive sleep problems all my life and depending on how stressed I am I can't sleep well, so half the time I stay up until I'm so exhausted I just flop into bed and sleep, sometimes I lay on the couch watching something falling asleep, before waking up at like 4 to 6am and then going to bed and sleeping till my alarm goes off.

teeth/wash, lie down, read for a bit (or a while), sleep

We bathe, then sip a cup of tea and watch some YouTube videos. After that it is the usual self-care - brushing Our teeth and moisturising Our hands. Then We flop into bed.

Cleanser, Retinol serum, aloe moisturizer, HRT/meds, brush/floss, strip to underwear, set aside work clothes and hair ornaments, get under covers squeezing my blahaj as a body pillow, set alarms, put on sleep mask, wish I could stay in bed longer

it's pretty boring:

• sip some chamomile tea
• wash my face/brush teeth
• shower*
• put on moisturizer
• extract nova from the bedroom (we need to open the window for ventilation, and don't have mosquito nets)
• scroll through https://bsky.app/profile/oldprntsc.bsky.social with luna
• cuddle

• eep

• we used to do it in parallel with luna, like: she showers while I do the face stuff, then I shower while she does the face stuff, but she does the face stuff in shower now so it's more like: I do the face stuff, then wait for her, then shower while she's waiting