There’s an interesting contrast that bb yeonjun has. When I first met him he felt like someone that lived on the edge a bit. He was always someone that came off as really sure about himself. Especially seeing how he wanted to do things that were gutsy at his hometown. Like jumping the fence and wanting to trespass. And he also just in general seemed at first like someone that acted before he thought. But the recent chapters feel like he’s the opposite. He’s super safe when driving (two hands on the wheel), he’s not that great with rollerblading and seemed a bit scared trying and I can’t think of much examples off the top of my head but he reads a lot more safe and cautious since earlier chapters. Almost like he has more to live for and is suddenly afraid of doing something reckless and as a result of that, not being able to be there for bb Beomgyu and protect him. It’s almost as if he’s trying to be the strongest version of himself for them both. I think bb yeonjun has fears of leaving bb Beomgyu cuz he trusts that he will be able to see the signs when bb Beomgyu is having a hard time. He trusts that he himself is the only one that can protect him, and so he thinks “how can I leave him when no one can watch over him like I can?” I think maybe that’s his journey is figuring out that he can’t guarantee bb Beomgyu will always be protected by him. He has to understand that loving someone is waking up everyday knowing that they may not be there tomorrow and still loving them fiercely in spite of that. Sorry if I’m so off! I just love them so much!