[answered on: 5/8/2022]

Ah yes a well discussed topic, I've covered this before... and, I shall cover it again. *swirls wine glass*

As always, some preamble, to sort of explain my thesis and how I go about thinking of Sunny/Mari first times in general. I do have a sort of internal logic to it, based on the game, it might... sound a little cray but bear with me. I sort of take The Recital as a marker of "Mari and Sunny's feelings for one another WILL come to ahead by this point". The Recital is kind of like, a due date, make or break. Once we past the Recital, the clock is ticking for the impending f*ck.

The reason for this being, that the year prior has been kind of building up steadily to Mari and Sunny having to confront what they're going through. It's a loaded year, between practicing for the waltz, Sunny straining during practice, Mari locking herself away, cram school — the fact that Sunny had a near-death experience that summer... The walls are closing in, with regards to Sunny and Mari having their lifelong closeness challenged by social expectation, impending future responsibilities. As Mari is being forced to consider college, and work harder on her academics, they are both having to think about what life without the other is, means. Sunny nearly dying further puts a pin in it, for Mari — she also is dealing with 'loss' as much as Sunny in canon has to confront it. The idea of losing something precious, forever, potentially. Never having what you once had, as a child, again. The comfort and security... slipped from your fingers.

Both Sunny and Mari use repression to hide their emotions from one another. While there seems to be different reasons/motivations in some ways, they collude on not being able to communicate their emotions well, hiding signs of strain and stress. Sunny admires and adores his sister, he misses spending time with her, so he picks up violin to join her in performance. He is unable to express the way that violin strains, frustrates, saddens him. He is unable to just tell her that he misses her. Mari, meanwhile, is rarely seen crying, even by her brother she shares a room with. The hints of her becoming stressed by piano and school are squirreled away, found only in her notes and the glimpses of her unable to sleep well at night. Her perfectionism makes her feel inadequate in everything she does, whether it be piano, or, innocuous things like baking cookies or making flower crowns.

They have a lot of natural chemistry and spend hours of the day together, and clearly love one another deeply. But there are barriers between them also, due to their collective communication issues. (To be fair, these same barriers exist between all of their friends as well —Kel/Hero/Aubrey/Basil are all equally not privy to Sunny and Mari's inner struggle.) But they are both hiding things from one another that will inevitably make the Recital a loaded event, where their feelings come to burst.

... I always think Sunny and Mari are, ah, a 'fuck or die' concept that happened to unfortunately end on 'die'. It feels like there are 1000 timelines where something less dire happened, but they had bad luck. And, of course, the most tragic version of events makes for the best video game plot, lol. TBH, even if we do not have an incest lens on the story, I still think that Sunny and Mari could've recovered from the Recital going poorly... Like, EVEN IF Sunny BROKE his violin, ruined the recital for both of them, shoved her even... IF SHE JUST did not FALL and become CONCUSSED, and if BASIL THE ABSOLUTE PSYCHO had not THEN LEAPT TO HANGING A BODY. I think things would have GONE BETTER. EXPONENTIALLY BETTER!!! I mean, me and Avvy wrote a fanfic about this, basically, LOL... the point of our fic is, even if Mari WAS MAJORLY INJURED from the fall, but survived, I think they could just TALK ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS... ORGANICALLY.

Honestly though it's so easy to imagine a bunch of splinter timelines, like Sunny destroying the violin and Mari just crying, shutting down due to their argument — and their parents coming home to this mess, chewing out Sunny, canceling the recital. All this drama, would be survivable, still... Obviously we see how much Sunny feels like an utter monster for what he did; he is capable of reflecting on his past self at the top of the stairs and feel like he acted out of line. He would feel guilty for ruining his sister's recital (which he already felt he was doomed to do)... and Mari is, well, capable of forgiving Sunny for potentially murdering her, SO I THINK. She could be understanding about anything, given the time to work it through with him...

So, I think, even in the most severe, intense, loaded version of events — broken violin, argument, yelling, crying — that they would be able to heal past it and get to the root of the issue. That they are both miserable having to meet expectations for their family, for society, that the prestige of learning instruments and performing was too much... That Sunny was miserable feeling as though he had to 'earn' Mari's time and affection, when it was something he always had in the past.

Ehm, however, I do have to see the events as colluding in sex because — while ofc we sympathize for Sunny out here — I do think it is INTENSE to need MORE out of your sister that you still snuggle with when you have nightmares and still like, hang out with all the time, having picnics together fshfhdgh... Seems like what you need and want is more than just being friends ksdkgh...

Anyways I say this all to explain that I think Sunny and Mari are actually but a hair's breadth away from stumbling into sex and further intimacy from one another, the... feelings have always been there, waiting, incubating, only getting more and more unbearable as they age. I think the ages they are at for the Recital 'fuck now or die' moment makes sense *freak voice* biologically, even. Sunny is experiencing puberty and his first incel rage tantrum, is what I mean. And his sister is becoming hot sexy fuckable. Next year they were going to be a 13 yo boy and 16 yo girl sharing a room, just like ruminate on that sentence. For a moment. Let it simmer. Makes you think, right.

There's lots of decadent moments to choose from. I like either of them being instigators also, it feels like fair game. Between Sunny's cluelessness and Mari's playfulness... Sunny's intensity, Mari's flirtatiousness. It's like mmm. Indulgently, it feels like there's such a wide range of ages it could start too... I mean I've drawn todcon for a reason wwww. Dunno what it is with these two, it's so easy to imagine it happening, sincerely!! Whether it's very young, kind of blithe curiosity exploration of one another's bodies, something happening in the middle of some game of pretend, this or that... Or, tender tweens, becoming more cognizant of the world/interest in the other... shyly admitting feelings, wanting to promise a life with one another... starting to have new friends and getting insecure, wanting to sink into the known comfort of each other... Or, the intensity of teenhood! Puberty coming down hard! Being frustrated by school, other friends, getting jealous-!! Competing for attention, feeling ENTITLEMENT, feeling peeled apart by your boiling crush-!! A moment of PASSION, GRABBING the other, RAHHH, be MINE!! It's all so 💞💞💞💞 ahh, sunshine... I think it just has it all, the gradient of innocence and like strangeness, perversion, ww... They're so normal and so weird, both of them... Yknow?? Sunny's such a normal boy but feels like a freak, pervert, weird fixations, weird inclinations... Mari is such a normal girl but so flirty, playful, inviting, overly encouraging, doting, welcoming too much... Sigh-!!!

[answered on: 5/3/2022]

Oh yes... well... because it's fun-! And like *twirls hair* I dunnooo, it's almost so mystical and novel to be allowed into the world of girlness... That's something I've never experienced before.

I should mention, I like, have always been rather feminine, and enjoyed feminine things. Distinctly so; as a kid I was enchanted by frilly froufrou stuff, bows, ribbons, tutus, like THE most cartoon depictions of femininity... I mean, I just liked fairies and ballerinas and mermaids wwww... Always have been drawn to cutesy things with big shiny eyes, love the color pink, love all the accoutrements of ♀️. He was out there watching Barbie and MLP movies. Once I hit my weeb phase in middle school, I obsessively read and watched a lot of shoujo manga and anime. Fell hard into FiM when it came out too. And ah, well as a late teen I eventually reached my final form of being a full-blown idol otaku. So, historically, I've never had an aversion for being associated with this stuff. I readily surrounded myself in it.

That being said, I never really felt like I succeeded in embodying "girl", by myself... The feeling has always been that of merely being a spectator and admirer, peering in on things. But it wasn't realistic to ever expect myself to BE girl, idk, I couldn't imagine it... I would get wistful about it, since I love shiny eyed moe anime girls so much and love feminine clothing. I got so much out of observing it, that I felt like it would be fun to BE this... So I'd be sad that I wasn't born some petite fairy-like girl. As, like, a fat tall guy with wall eyes, I just felt like there was 0 chance of me being seen as anything remotely adjacent to 'girl'.

But um, Avvy really helped me explore this finally, when I got to know her... since she really loved my femininity... When we first met, I was in a bad place with my self-esteem, actually, and was just wearing polos+basketball shorts, and I had shaved my head (for various reasons). She helped me actually start accruing pretty floral leggings for the first time and nice sweaters, tops, eventually skirts... Before that, I had just a handful of floral print tops I had thrifted, and 1 rather ah, neutral dark green dress. Those already felt bold to wear, but they were very humble beginnings. Avvy really helped me develop a whole style~! It helped that I loved how she dressed so much, I pretty much just wanted to mirror it, though with my own touches.

Presently, MOST of my wardrobe is women's clothing!! And me and Avvy share skirts and tops sometimes <3 I love this being the case now... I dunno, I just like girl clothes!

My self-esteem improved greatly with this change... and! The most magical thing of all, is now in public, when with Avvy, I get seen as a girl! With her! It's so fun and new. Something new that has happened also, that never would happen before, is I get complimented by women ;; They'll like, say they like my hair or necklace or shoes, my outfit... It's amazing! I feel like, transformed by proxy of being with Avvy. The power of our matching outfits... makes me something dainty and cute, somehow. Really a super fun magical feeling like never before!! What's amazing is this happens even though I have like, jaw fuzz? I have like, a shrimpy little neckbeard, but it doesn't seem to change anything.

... I have to say, there's also quite a unique, kinda playful flavor to this all... That I'm out and about with Avvy in a skirt, but then I go home and get my dick sucked. Lol. Also Avvy still just uses "he" when we're out and about and I think this is a fun dose of confusion. Who is "she", you'll never know.

Basically, I feel like I've gone from being a distant spectator, to being accepted as a part of girl-world. But ah. But also it still feels like I'm 'outside' of it, in a way, but — like, it's hot now? It's become a voyeuristic thing. I feel like a boy who got into the all-girls sleepover, secretly... This is why I kind of feel like a trap but for lesbians www

I sorta feel like I'm LARPing the experience now, and it's really fun and I love it. For me, there's this sort of nexus of being attracted to girls & wanting to experience it firsthand. As a result of this all, I've also been embracing my kins that are girls, and making ♀️sonas to pair with Avvy's. Finally getting to really relish in f/f stuff as a result... Feeling as though I am actually a part of it! (I've shipped f/f in the past but would sometimes get sad, again, just feeling only like a creepy guy who will never get to be this...) For yuri, the common arrangement is dickgirl(me) + cis girl(avvy) but I also can enjoy fantasies where I'm a cis girl too lately, so there's variety... spice. No matter what the arrangement, though, I specifically like exploring girls who are struggling with feeling like their sexuality is bizarre, or weirdly inappropriate for themselves. Like having the soul of a pervert guy trapped in girl body. Not very ah... girl of you, to want to fuck pussy really hard (⬅️ this isn't true but their brains have not yet expanded)

Man I'm rambling, these may all be very tangential thoughts; I'm just covering both IRL + fictional exploration of this all. I enjoy being a girl with Avvy in all worlds hehe💞💞

[answered on 4/25/2022]

Going to list both CN originals and things broadcasted on it like, notably. So!

Absolute favorites of all time:

• Adventure Time - Good show. A classic. I've rewatched AT eps countless times, me and Avvy can more or less recite dialogue and events of them back and forth to each other by heart. We have encyclopedic knowledge of event in AT. Finn and Marceline remain a pristine OTP I have had since 2011. Really, I've adored the show since 2011. Seasons 1-4 are pristine, live forever in my heart. It gets a little more complicated after that but I still care about the series as a whole. There's still such a distinct quiet, contemplative flavors to AT as a show... It feels like a show with many drawn out silences. A lot of atmosphere. I treasure it.

• Steven Universe - What can I say. I do literally think SU is one of the most tasteful, thoughtfully made TV shows that has ever aired. I don't think there's anything like it. Visually, thematically, and musically one of my favorite pieces of media ever. Idk if anything could dethrone it, so far nothing has come close. Steven/Lapis OTP forevah. Being Steven kin literally taught me so much about myself. And, so on. (As an aside I would note that I don't like SU:F collectively as much as the original series, but I liked it too. It has value, obv.) I feel like nothing can 'ruin' SU for me... I have so many perfect memories of being excited and anticipating the release of episodes, creating predictions/analysis, on the edge of my seat for things... OH something SU has really uniquely is, that I could never guess where it was going to go next. That was huge. I love when a show can really surprise me...? It doesn't always happen!

• Over the Garden Wall - While not quite on the same level of the other two, I think OTGW deserves an honorable mention as something I imbibed when it came out and liked a lot. For a while, it was a ritual comfort to watch OTGW whenever autumn rolled around, it's a very suitable 'seasonal' sort of interest. To taste. I like it's contained story, visuals, and soundtrack a lot. The vibes. A little atmospheric romp. The world of the Unknown is really intriguing, good for imagining vignettes of horror occurring... I like Wirt I like Beatrice, I like, their relationship..... :)

Things I watched as a kid/teen and enjoyed:

• The Powerpuff Girls - This show was really like. young bird loves this show and sings the theme song. However I mostly watched it, in spanish, while living in Colombia-! I don't have the clearest memories of it either, since it was so long ago. Mmm but I definitely loved aspects of the designs, namely the HUGE EYES on the girls and their funny nub hands and feet. The girly flourishes here and there. Bubbles was my favorite, natch, though I liked some aspects of Blossom too, second fav. I do not see Buttercup. All that being said the most powerful things in the show are the power pups and the squirrel they find and take care of. Big eyed female animals. Yes. Inspiring, perfection. No ships and nothing more to say about it all, but there's nostalgia and sentimentality to it overall. My life as a doe-eyed little kid simply enjoying PPG.

• Ed, Edd n Eddy - Loved it, very entertaining, weirdly engaging? I was so often 'too good' for shows of 'this caliber', like er, silly... gross-out humor show? And yet, I do feel like EEnE has more going on than ppl might assume. I can't quite go on about it as much as Avvy could (as she actually diligently watched & fandomed for this) but it's of note. Distinct scenes, quotes, episodes live in my head. My fav was Double D... I'm basic :p

• Courage the Cowardly Dog - OH did I love Courage. So very much as a little kid. Apparently I would babble at my parents to put on 'stupid dog', which, my mom hated. skdjdg. But seriously, major sentimentality over it, still. It's just such a bizarre and unique show. Stimulating soundscape... concepts... The humor and horror and visuals have stuck with me all my life, I would say. Courage is just so lovable. In certain moods, I will actively rewatch certain eps of it.

• The Grim Adventures of Bill and Mandy - Lol at the time this aired it was just perfectly compatible to my humor somehow. Despite the crudeness of it all. I watched a decent amount of the series + the specials. I like...... Nergal Jr still ig. he's... the closest I am to 'stanning' something...? In this show? but, overall it's not really a show I actually have much to say about kdhchd... its not very inspiring haha. Some things, are just funny.

• Code Lyoko - *a little shy* ... I was very obsessed with Code Lyoko when it was airing... lots of memories of very seriously keeping up with the show and sitting in front of the TV patiently waiting for it to air. I made a pokemon AU where all the characters had pokemon partners, and then, a second AU where they were pokemon. I also think that, I was so young when watching it, that it was very new & novel & entrancing for a story to be long-form with serious continuity? The CG computer world genuinely feeling 'cool', 'interesting'... And the villain being nonhuman, a malevolent AI with its own desires & agenda... and. I mean. The constant child torture. Like the high stakes of children being electrocuted, trapped in elevators, in a bus about to crash into a generator. Trapped in a closet and slowly being gassed until they pass out, and so on. Anyways Aelita best girl <3

• Teen Titans - I? sorta remember, avidly watching this and feeling feely-wheelies about Starfire, Raven, and Terra. And I liked Beast Boy's powers (animal tf always cool) ... but it's all a blur now tbh, I only recall a random handful of rando eps. I think I was just kind of entranced by something that had a longform narrative and some severity to it. But superheroes are generally not my thing, truth be told. I'm not enticed by anything in TT as an adult, even just aesthetically. I'm sure the series itself is Just Fine like... writing wise.

• The Looney Tunes Show (2011) - A bit of a weird one but i liked it, when it came out. Let's say this is my favorite iteration of Looney Tunes lol. A lot of characters feel at their most charming, like, personality & dynamics wise. I like that they revamped Lola and made her a bimbo girl who stalks Bugs. This is actually her most powerful form. I find her voice also like really entrancingly smooth and pretty? Her singing voice genuinely stunned me when I first heard it. I was so like. Wow. I stan. I like all Lola scenes. *me, a simple hog in his trough, enjoying a dumb rich girl*

Shows I watched partially, but don't really care about except for 1 or 2 things:

• Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends - this is one of those shows that's like... "close, but not quite". When it came out I was just like so tantalized by the concept of imaginary friends, like, the IDEA... of this world... but. I think the execution is lacking and. The chemistry between the main cast suuuucks. Bloo is just. SO. annoying and horrible ksfdjgh... iirc he was more tempered in the pilot/early series but it's a case of a character progressively becoming a stupid self-obsessed jerk, to create conflict and comedy. And it sucks. You're really watching this like god... this... BALL & CHAIN... that is Bloo. The fact that Mac is here out of a sense of sheer OBLIGATION.. is unfun omggg it's not like the power of friendship as much as, like, you feel responsible for this being. Like if only Bloo wasn't there to torment the nice characters like Eduardo and Wilt. Anyways the style is like also almost something but not quite? No design really 'hits'... The most valuable thing from Foster's is it's 1hr special Destination Imagination that features a yandere OP imaginary friend: World aka Me. I like that he exists. That is all I need. Thank you.

• Chowder - You think Chowder is a fine show and a good time, just silly fun. But then you rewatch it and you re-process that it is INCREDIBLY, INCREDIBLY. MISOGYNISTIC. and constantly making bad jokes about miserable married couples and nagging wives and evil moms and. You're not having as much fun, anymore. The world becomes a little less special of a place. But... Chowder, himself, is still, a really charming delightful little guy. For whatever reason, Chowder himself is my government assigned kin. I just have to accept this. Me and Avvy have rewatched it in its entirety together, and just have been like "sigh" about him. The boy. what can you do when you love a boy. I actually think Panini and Gorgonzola are fun too, honestly, I wish the show was just the kid characters. Would be most fun this way.

• Robotboy - omg I totally. remember watching this & liking it & thinking Robotboy was cute BUT I CANNOT. tell you a single salient detail about it, the memories I have are SO VAGUE. but tbh that's probably all there was to my interest skfdg... i dont think any of the humans were anything to me.

• Xiaolin Showdown - the. i mean again i remember watching this and liking some parts of it. vaguely. like. jack spicer. or something. but it's a haze.

• Krypto the Superdog - Lol i mean. It was perfectly fine and serviceable at the time. like oh sure yes. dog superhero. that's better than regular superhero. a fine time. Normal. neutral. no strong memories though.

• Camp Lazlo - It was fine. it was funny. watched it and it was just OK. no distinct memories

• The Amazing World of Gumball - a fine show at first. I thought it was cute and funny and liked Gumball and Darwin in the first few seasons, they have a cute dynamic, just two dumb best friends. But things eventually kind of got... unfun as Gumball became more of an inconsiderate jerk-type of idiot? (This is similar to my problem with Bloo...) And idk I dropped off before things got all. Memes. and like references to internet culture. Which I'm really allergic to honestly kdfjghf... a shame because I do think the aesthetic of TAWOG is like interesting, it's nice to watch. But I don't have any ships or waifus I love to stick around much, meaningfully, so... RIP.

• We Bare Bears - oh in THEORY... i would like such an innocuous concept. but in the end, the show is mostly boring and a lot of characters bother and annoy me. i don't actually like bears very much aesthetically... one of the lowest ranking animals; 'm not crazy about them. Mmm and. The bears are boring guys. I wish Grizz was more of a lovable goof to me but he's annoying... Panda gives me some sort of major cringe due to being a whiny incel sort-of otaku omfg? Cringe as in, well I'm a. Fat. Otaku and loser-incel-ness is so in my DNA, I suppose I am easily wounded. by jokes like this. Ice bear is, fine, but man this is just not the kind of whimsy I'd like out of a show starring 3 animals. I wish they were more critter-like. Anyways i LIKE Chloe, a LOT... I FEEL my brain struggling with the fact that... it likes the porno set-up of an 8 yo girl who is overly sure of herself, hanging out with 3 large male animals in a cave. And then also being unsupervised and hanging out with college-age students because she's a prodigy. MY SIMPLE, HINDBRAIN wants it to be utter hubris for Chloe to be trusted so much freedom and free-range by her parents bc she is smart. Everyone should learn a lesson about this. These are such uncontrollable thoughts i have. but yeah. She's the only thing of value to me, wrt WBB.

And... that's... I think everything!

[answered on 4/24/2022]

I have a funny relationship with Sonic. I would say I have been a lifelong casual...? Lol. I think my first exposure to it was when I was under 10 years old, I believe I played... Adventure 2 Battle for the gamecube (I didn't own any non-Nintendo consoles, so!) And thenn.. a little while later, I got my hands on Sonic Heroes and Sonic Adventure DX. Oh and then Sonic X was on TV so I watched that rather diligently. Around this time, I would say I was 'peak' into Sonic, like... I made a few OCs and had lowkey ships. I remember liking Tail and Cosmo's arc in the anime. Oh, but being honest, the #1 thing I was utterly obsessed with were Chao.

Actually, the Chao were like... THE... sole motivation for me playing the Adventure games. I still remember my babies names & colors & alignments so well... Was obsessed with breeding them and getting two-toned Chao also. The holy grail was getting my two most beautiful Chao to mate and produce a beautiful baby. I still think Chao are like.. the cutest and best thing from Sonic, and my actual favorite element of the world. I'm of the opinion they need to bring back Chao Garden. Like. Please. Release us

Tho, like, as a result of all this, I would say I didn't even actually process any of the narrative elements of the games very well until I replayed them later, as a tween/young teen lol?? It's like it was all garnish to me, like... something something....... Shadow has some sick girl he knows? Biolizard? Teh chaos emeralds. I remember being somewhat intrigued by Tikal & her storyline but-?? Like I couldn't parse it, in reality, omg. He just wasn't motivated quite enough to drink in more than a few cursory details. Though to be like, candid, I just think the series' overall aesthetic and design theory isn't very harmonious with me. I don't like the proportions of hands/feet and uah. Textures. Sonic himself just looks strange to me, I've never really understood the... spiky head... back spike... his weird tan little belly. And the brow ridge. As a rule of thumb I prefer SMALL hands and feets, not big cartoon gloves and shoes. Lots of things are either neutral or outright unattractive to me so I find it hard to stay attentive, ig, wwwww...

As a teen I had several friends who were crazy into Sonic, and inundated me with it, so I like... am fairly educated on games/history and some lore, like. I have been shown the old Saturday morning cartoons and the comics and the older games. Have watched some of Sonic Underground, and Sonic Boom. and, like, I played modern games like Secret of the rings, Unleashed, Colors. That uhh air racing one.... Riders. Rush. But god despite this all I can't say I got a lot out of it kdjghf.f.... and my friends shipped like. Sonadow and Silver & Scourge & Sonic. and like Sonic/Tails, which I JUST. dont care. about. like 0%. f.d,gfhf... *my anti-yaoi DNA flaring up* ... Ueh, it's almost like, observing my friends who REALLY REALLY liked Sonic made me understand I do not really feel. Those things. so much. It's all been so capricious.

Like, I remember that I really liked... CHIP?? From Unleashed, when he was new. I liked him so much i. Designed him a gf (girl version of him)... and I like the Night of the Werehog short a lot when that came out too. and I would say it's still cute... But omg it all feels so random. Yk.

Oh I should mention, at this point... the new CG Sonic movies are LITERALLY the most I've enjoyed Sonic himself, he. Is incredibly cute and delightful. I think the movies distill everything down to something I can find really entertaining? Oh and like. Idk it literally helps that he is covered in fur and a cute tragic orphan. Unlike the average like smug guy Sonic. I prefer it if he's more on the... like mischievous kid side, than shitty older teen side ig. (I haven't watched the 2nd movie yet bc I'm not near a theatre and I haven't seen it online yet BUT. I WANT TO REALLY BADLY-!!!!!!!)

In conclusion... I would say my modern-day favs of the 'main' cast are... Cream and Tails! I've always liked them best out of the mains, tbh, and I think they're the most stimulating to consider. I like that Cream is Chao-aligned and nurturing, and I like that Tails is a precocious boy. I think they're cute together. Some real kindergarten romance here. I don't have a real particular 'canon' I imagine them in, I just sort of chop & screw all the details of the canon that I know and create my most ideal verse. I do imagine them on their own planet, not related to Earth/humans at all, with Tails being self-made and independent from a very young age and Cream living with her mom. Very incidental and serendipitous meeting one another. Despite Cream being soft spoken and gentle, she's actually the one that is bolder and more forward between the two, as she's curious about Tails, and he's more skittish and... like poorly socialized? He's book-smart but not people smart quite — though, very polite, inherently. Maybe so polite he's like endearingly awkward?

Ideally they come together as like, a meld of Cream's gentle caretaking side and Tails' thoughtfulness making for a cute match up. I like Tails to be struggling with wanting to be seen as mature and as smart and capable as older individuals around him.... Insecure about this and almost overcompensating by presenting this mature veneer. But around a peer like Cream there's not actually a reason to posture as much and he can be more relaxed and wee bit childish. Though, I do think he just naturally IS more mature and has more mature interests/hobbies; so this is just about lessening the pressure and helping build his confidence so he doesn't doubt himself as much. ^^ Um and then kiss. and stuff. ehe.

[answered on: 4/21/2022]

you know, it's funny, I see Sunny as such a simple boy that he generally isn't thinking about creating more atmosphere via location. It's like, the sex itself is so overwhelming and all-consuming, that it's hard to think past the literal act of it happening. In a way, it's already derelict to be fucking Mari behind their parents' backs in the house. Therein already lies: risk, tension, and a familiar location being altered by the act of sex. The livingroom couch and kitchen counter hit different, after a while.

I also think it takes a minute for Sunny to even have a mind capable of conceptualizing things as particular as the edging scenario I discussed in a few other asks, where he's laying under Mari's desk while she does homework and pawing idly at him during. It's like, THAT takes a rather inspired moment of thought for Sunny. Step 1 is being able to think about wanting to do different particular acts with her, a blowjob like this, or, fingering her in this position, etc. And then thinking about things he wants to say to her & things he wants to hear that he hasn't before. Steadily loading... particular desires, wants. He's a bit slow for these things, as a humble 12 yo boy navigating sex with sister. His turbo virgin stat means things aren't so immediately prevalent in the mind.

But I do think after some stewing, a couple of urges manifest. I think the first is 'unactionable'; it's Sunny at school, wishing he could scamper off and have sex with Mari mid-day. This isn't very feasible because Sunny is middle school aged while Mari is likely in her first or second year of high school, so they're probably in separate buildings for their school days. There's no way to reconvene in a bathroom stall, or under a stairwell, or what-have-you... No behind the bleachers shenanigans. But I think as Sunny is at school and, horny, he finds himself gazing at areas that would be good for a quick fling. Oooh if only. You know. But unfortunately it won't be until he's a freshman and Mari's a senior that anything like that could occur... And that thought is so far-off it would leave Sunny forlorn. *sighs deeply while staring out window*

This however, could transition to something more applicable... the fantasy of both him and Mari skipping school together, and having the day to themselves. Something appealing about the thought of them meandering around Faraway, in the more woodsy areas behind the playground and on the outskirts of the lake hideout, or behind their house, in the denser brush of the backyard. I think right behind the house becomes more appealing... like further back than the treehouse even, around thick bushes and tree coverage. I think... a LOT about the later chapters of Oyasumi Punpun, where Punpun and Aiko are having a lot of sex, and in one instance they're out in the woods, with Aiko bent over, hands on a tree while being plowed from behind. My mind gravitates to visuals like this... Mari and Sunny in a little pocket of the woods, shaded from the sun, while people are at work and kids are at school. This feels fairly actionable for Sunny, a needle he could thread, as I think Mari would be very tempted to skip school with him if he dared to propose it. And from there it'd be easy to wander into secluded areas, as they are trying to not attract much attention or be spotted by anyone that could tattle on them anyhow. I think Mari would REALLY delight in Sunny being forward enough to initiate anything also, and they could create a feedback loop back and forth of getting excited by what they are doing. Two teen siblings making out in the woods... can it get any more potent (for their little rich kid brains...)

I think Omori has a little more capacity for thinking of entire set-pieces, atmospheres, but actually might be more helpless about how to accomplish it? He's mm... not as good at existing in reality and making plans that account for specific times of day and schedules. But I think Omori would really like the atmosphere of a late night, empty playground fuck... Dusk, light almost disappearing entirely from the sky, dead silence, no one around. The silhouettes of trees and play structures, familiar yet eerie. I think it'd be genuinely scary, heart-racing, make him jumpy to be in even, but also that he'd be enthralled by this all simultaneously. I think Sunny is a little more of a wuss than Omori wwww and is less willing to experience something that might be scary and strange... but Omori has enough of an allure to such a concept. The poetic brain likes atmosphere, let's say. Tempted by the potential adrenaline of such a rendezvous. The liminal space of a completely empty playground... You might see the skulking shape and gleaming eyes of stray cats, lingering about. Wanna see Mari braced against the metal bars of a jungle gym. And so on. This would take more planning and conscious effort, I think it would take Omori describing this to Mari for her to be like "whoa..." and assist in making it a reality...? I realize, in general, for Omori pursuing things like this, I imagine him needing Mari's help and joint effort often enough.

i would like to say, that as I tap my Sunny&Omori brain(s), I find that places like the lake hangout spot itself or treehouse rank rather low on desired locations to smang. It's like, I think there's almost this aversion to the way the spaces are generally associated with the whole friend group? It's kind of 'everyone's' treehouse, which means having sex in it is almost... inappropriate. Perhaps the raw brain does not desire to see everyone's belongings while fucking, l-lol... "now's not the time". And, ah, the thought of someone swinging by or trying to climb up while they're in the middle of something, feels simultaneously too likely and unappealing. Meanwhile, the lake spot is quite hard for both Sunny and Mari to visit physically after his near-death experience. I think even if they became acclimated to water and swimming again, THAT particular place holds no real temptation.

If I were to psychoanalyze Sunny further, I would say that... intimacy and sexuality pursued with Mari marks a joint effort in closeness, which evokes more of their past than their present social circumstance. It's about Mari and Sunny missing the past, when it was just the two of them, and wanting to abandon things like expectation, school, social pressures, to instead be with one another more. Hangouts become a bit more on the decline, as Mari is less incentivized to arrange them, and the friend group kind of quietly simmers into more contained, smaller interactions, instead of the 6-way hangouts they were doing before. So it becomes more of a situation where Kel and Hero swing by casually, or Aubrey visits, instead of them all planning a big outing together. This is all more Sunny's 'speed'... he benefits from things being more contained, and for him and Mari to have a LOT of time together alone afterwards. I think the treehouse kind of is the peak of symbolizing this group togetherness that Sunny doesn't actually... want, need, or desire in the long run. He was kind of fussy the day it was built and only got so much out of it.

so, in the end, the most desirable locations to have sex with that aren't just home, would be separate from these memories of friends...! more sequestered and private.

[answered on: 4/16/2022]

[Kirby and the Forgotten Land spoilers below]

I have recently played through the game, yus! And... I really did love the final boss-!! Your assessment is correct. I had high hopes for this Kirby game based on the trailers/previews, it looked so distinctly enchanting to me — and I wouldn't say I overall especially gravitate to the Kirby series...?

Despite everything, I guess, it's like, funny. The games have a perfectly palatable style and I even like that they are aimed for younger kids, it makes them feel rather accessible to me. (I'm a "gamer" in that I like to play games a lot, and it's a lifelong interest, and I like to be tapped into gaming happenings... but I wouldn't say I'm a "serious" one at all, and ah, by nature, I kind of need, gentle baby games.) But, for some reason, I've never really been drawn to many Kirby games. I believe I've only played some of Kirby 64 (some other kid owned it, I'd play it at their place) and Squeak Squad. Lol. Never have been tempted by the other Kirby switch games out currently... I know people who stan Kirby have a lot to say about the lore and the dark elements of the narratives, and I respect that as well. Mm but still-! Just missing some essential vitamin, I guess.

So! I was like. Really pleased that Forgotten Land immediately caught my eye. Me and Avvy were immediately in love with Elfilin-!! Such a lovely little design. Sooo cute. We were really holding out for loredrops about Elfilin — so, as you can imagine, we were like, incredibly stoked as all the stuff with Fecto Forgo happened. It was like screams. It's happening-!!!

Actually, as I was playing, my pulse more or less stopped cold once we got into the Lab Discovera elevator. Held my breath. I feel like the execution of the voice over explaining everything is really excellent, the 'tone' is exactly what I would want for such a thing. I was like O.O *utterly entranced* ... Actually ah, I feel uniquely pandered to, I have some... vague interest in like, bizarre research facilities, creatures being experiments/test subjects, etc. (I have a whole complicated Splatoon HC with this line of thinking...) — so, everything that happened to Fecto Elfilis had me highly intrigued. It's so fascinating... Oh, I should mention, I'm still doing the post-game story stuff with Leongar's soul and what-not. So, IDK if there are more details about Fecto Elfilis I am yet to learn about, but currently, afaik it was attacking the plant for no known reason, destructively wiping life out... and yet! I think what happens to it, in the end, is so pitiable.

Whatever tf humans did to it, I can't fathom, like what in the world technology or magic did they use to subdue it...? And then keep it contained, doing god knows what to it. As I played the game, I really liked this vibe that humanity was very frivolous and childish almost, like ah, obsessed with entertainment and spectacles. Wondaria really gives me the impression that at some point humanity got into really ostentatious uses of their tech, but like, for silly things like theme parks. I would like to imagine it a world more 'whimsical' than hours, more like, hm... A bright, dreamy place, where the technology was being utilized for entertainment mostly after a while. So as a result, you get the ghoulish presentation of Fecto Elfilis — Come one, come all~! See the creature we subdued and extracted all its knowledge and magic from~! Here in this test tube! ... like this is a place where school children take field trips to... A cheery announcer deploys all this glibly to spectators. And then people go ooooh and snap pics with their cameras. Quite miserable to think about-!

It's actually bananas that 30 years into its imprisonment is when Elfilin split off. Imo this was like, Fecto Elfilis being like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!! With the torment of being trapped and exploited endlessly, used as a resource, so it like. Ripped a part of its soul out and deployed it into the world. A kind of like, GO, BE FREE, A PART OF ME-!!! FFFFIND SOMETHING... HELP. And indeed Elfilin did proceed to go and become integrated with the wildlife of this world and experience like, joy, whimsy, love. While the remnants, Fecto Forgo, shut down completely. Perhaps this was spiteful towards humans as well, a way of fracturing the power it held, so that way the science all grinded to a halt? It seems that humanity simply chose to suspend Fecto Forgo in stasis afterwards like, oh well, now you're just a trophy for us. And then humanity capriciously peaces out and leaves their fucked up torture facility behind (I'm determined it was this.) so... that is that...

Eventually the power runs out or something, things become overgrown, the beasties take over. And Fecto Forgo. Who. Fsr I see as 'she' — she wakes up and is sick, has suffered so many years being experimented on, and then suspended in a forceful sleep, and perhaps is aching from being 'incomplete'... Truly a miserable being. At least, I like to think of her. And I like to think that the Fecto Elfilis we see later is sick and messed up, unable to think right.

Man all that being said, I just love the design, uahh... Fecto Forgo is like so my jam. Weird fetus... beautiful, intense eyes, so animal looking! Her weird melty, messed up, asymmetrical ear situation. The form she takes as she absorbs all the beasts into her is also REALLY COOL... Really interesting... She honestly reminds me of the charm of a FNAF animatronic? That's weird to say maybe, but, it's like, the crazy eyes, the hanging jaw, the teefers. She's wonderful. I REALLY enjoyed this phase of the fight. Some sorta 'same' feeling also, idk, tfw, foaming mass, it was a body I could vibe all of a sudden. Cool. Fecto Elfilis meanwhile is so interesting, like who are you. You really do feel like some omnipotent alien, like god-like, strange, bizarre, not-of-this-world. I love the big wing eors. The eyes have this intensity, reminds me of a hare's intense stare. "⊙" The weird tail, the smooth nub feet, long footed. I would draw it tbh, I have been thinking about it. Maybe sometime in my free time sorta thing.

Anyhoo the verdict is: fun game, amazing boss design! Very fun.

[answered on: 4/12/2022]

hi avwyyy ヾ(≧▽≦*)o

Okie, question time... lessee...

It's kinda funny because, I think Sunny, in theory, would enjoy the concept of edging, like. It's something I believe he could more or less 'invent' in his own mind completely organically, without looking at any 'material' (he's not reading smut, not watching porn)... It's almost that, BECAUSE Mari is always doting and caretaking and sweet to him, Sunny would be tantalized at the thought of not being immediately given what he wants, denied something. Because that would entail Mari being selfish and not prioritizing his own needs for once, which I think is as mystical and rare as Mari crying/being upset. The mere concept of Mari being selfish, demanding, is so, like. *Sunny becomes dizzy at the thought, because WHO IS SHE...* I often imagine that, if Sunny starts actively jerking off, it's a scenario his mind would gravitate to. I think his brain also sort of extrapolates on the way Mari already is teasing and mischievous, as he is incredibly familiar with her playful side. And tbh I do think Mari IS a bit of a menace, when they are having sex, very uh... *starts. jerking Sunny off in the livingroom while their mom is making dinner* fjksdghfg so, she's already prone to taking Sunny on a ride that he would not necessarily 'consent' to beforehand hahah. It feels like a very natural 'next thought', to envision a Mari that's going to string him along for a period of time. Dangle a treat in front of his nose. A-awoof...

Um, but I say "in theory" because... Well! I do think Sunny has a sort of bratty side to him, that he doesn't have a very good handle on, aha. Though before I get into it, I wanna say, I don't think edging is impossible, just very particular-! But ah. I would see it almost as a part of Sunny's immature charm, that he's a baby and doesn't like being kept from pleasure. The few things that lead me to believe this are... Well for starters, the fact that Sunny is someone who really likes his comforts, they are very fixed. He likes his toys, he likes his favorite foods, he likes his big sister, haha. I think if Sunny had it his way, he would pretty much be perpetually a kid, enjoying pleasure, with no responsibilities. Nap time is whenever I want, I can eat candy all day, no school, etc. Headspace is almost like, a turbo fantasy of 'if there were obligations, they'd be so silly that I would want to do them' ; a world where Sunny can exist in and be 'helpful' but also more or less just be faffing around nonstop. Pretty ideal, for a lazy hedonist.

I mean the fact that Sunny would quit school and sociality entirely in the face of too-extreme hardship says a lot to me. Everyone else lost Mari too, and Basil was even also traumatized (I mean that's his fault but yk) but no one else completely halted their life and gave up going outside. I think Sunny uniquely has a full shut down, due to lack of motivation. Literally, without Mari, and without anyone else to fill in that role, he COMPLETELY shuts down. I don't think everyone in his situation would do that, even if they did hurt someone intentionally and struggled to reconcile with it. Like ah, when Aubrey nearly is responsible for drowning Basil in the lake, I still don't think her response to that would be to completely give up on all the things in her environment. I would say there's enough raw motivational drive within her to keep going. Auer, a bit of a severe tangent — I bring this all up just to propose that Sunny has distinctly low motivation... Which means he has a bit of a shorter threshold for pleasure denial. I think he wants to press a button and receive pleasure, and dangling a carrot on a stick would make him lay down and give up. In a lot of circumstances. Or, in a very particular case, he could get mad about it.

Sunny's demanding anger, his entitlement, is a unique emotion, exclusively expressed towards Mari! There's... pretty much no one else Sunny has ever DEMANDED time, attention, and response from. You can comb through the whole game and you're pretty much never going to have a scene where Sunny asks Kel, Aubrey, and Hero, for... anything... As much as he passively enjoys the gestures made towards him. Especially as a 16 yo. Older teen Sunny is fully shut down; you have to drag him out of bed to do anything, otherwise he won't. He is not vying for anyone else's attention. Cumulatively, between memories, imagined Headspace events, and present-day Faraway town, Sunny/Omori is very passive about what he participates in. I'm not saying Sunny has no whims ever — I delight in all the things he can choose to do, like play pet rocks or do pizza delivery... But I am saying that in terms of WANTING distinct people's ATTENTION... Sunny is quite bereft of action. Even his memory of leaning on Aubrey in a car ride is incidental; he fell on her shoulder while asleep. I think a lot of things work like this for Sunny... he merely enjoys something happening around him quietly. Or, he doesn't enjoy it, quietly. The nature of Sunny...

I feel like, the fact that Sunny could feel anything along the lines of "but I did this FOR YOU!" because of Mari... *twirls hair* I dunno, it feels so romantic, lol. In that. These are the sort of emotions incels feel for a reason, you know...? I think it is very particular to feel 'owed' something, in exchange for your 'effort'. When does Sunny ever feel this otherwise...? But I think he genuinely just can't feel it anywhere else besides with Mari, due to having always had a close relationship with her where she accommodates for him constantly. I think Sunny feels owed a response, because he usually, reliably, gets a response. I think Mari usually does so much for Sunny, that she's the most comforting person in his life. But ah, love is... selfish💞 by nature💞 and that constant comfort means that Sunny really feels the lack of it, as Mari is becoming busy with life, school, friends. He may just be missing a few hours of time with her because of cram school and recital practice, but it's enough to make him feel crazy.

IMO the rage towards violin would not be so intense were it not being done for beautiful perfect sister that he loves more than anything. If it were not for Mari, I think Sunny would just like cry and give up the lessons sooner as well. But he was trying to hold out for the eventual reward of doing the recital together. He wanted to 'do this for her'; he wanted to earn Mari's waning time and attention back by integrating himself into her performance. And he wanted all the hard work to be worth it, in the end. I mean in a way, he was sort of holding out for delayed gratification. And failed. He just got so mad at the violin and jealous about it as a symbol of it keeping Mari away from him to the point where he had to destroy it. Then take it out on her.

... so edging. Lol.

it depends on what specifically Mari would be subjecting him to. I think some things go over smoother than others, overall, but all end in Sunny kind of being a baby and wanting relief before it is granted to him naturally. Like, in a circumstance where Mari is just doing teasing light touches, pawing at his boner casually with a free hand, hovering her mouth over his cock, it would... At first, be a sitch where Sunny is trying to be good and wait. But after a while, after being leaky with pre, there would be a point that's like *WHINES...* [internally] I know Mari would just-!! If I-!! Said please a lot she would!! Suck me off and I want it I WANT IT-!! This is a boy utterly ruined by the fact that he can now get a blowjob whenever he wants, usually. The fact that he knows he CAN get away with misbehaving and it won't jeopardize him and Mari's sexual relationship is also what makes it so hard to adhere to any willpower. It'd eventually devolve into him whimpering and whining while tugging Mari's face closer by her hair... If Mari tried to have resolve, it'd only increase the incessance of it, "pleeease PLEASE please please please" *rutting cock against*... To which, I genuinely don't think Mari has enough willpower to get through, it's like um, hearing a baby crying, the nurture instinct is like uuuuu okay okay okay... Shh shhh... *swallows to the base*

In a world where Sunny lasted a LITTLE bit longer, and Mari was teasing him by wrapping her lips around his cock but remaining still, or very slowly running her tongue against the tip, I think Sunny would just. Cave and. Hold her head and forcefully thrust into her mouth. I think it's a circumstance of, the combination of immediate relief and moving Mari so harshly, makes him immediately come, which like. Is very rude and forceful to do while having to be good, like *SHOVES IN AND NUTS INTO YOUR THROAT* but I think it is a fun flavor. And then after he'd be very apologetic like ;;;;;; sorry.... But Mari would just be in fine spirits. She'd tease him a lot though like, '~my impatient little brother~! LOL' this would be enough to embarrass Sunny so much he wants to die, perhaps that is his karma.

Any other circumstance where Sunny is being forced to watch Mari do something, finger herself, or rut against a pillow or something for show... i THINK Sunny would LIKE to be a good boy who keeps his hands to himself and just watches, but in reality, being forced to purely spectate would make him throw a mini-tantrum in seconds. Just ah, outright start crying, and be like, "N... no!!!!" and claw away any hand keeping him at bay, anything like that. I think in particular watching Mari finger herself would just end in like, RIPPING the hand away and forcing his own there, or shoving his cock into her, the most, 'NO!! THIS IS FOR ME!!!!' primal brain. Entering an almost frenzied mode and demanding that Mari never do something like this again, actually, DON'T DO THIS TO ME, this is for me I need it, I need to fuck you... *froths* It's like ah, the situation got too 'real' for him immediately, he was suddenly living in a timeline where Mari does not let him touch her. Which spurs an irrational level of incel feelings in that moment. Hate feeling cucked for 1 second (due to having felt like a cuck for years beforehand kfdghfg)... I do think a side effect of Sunny's illness is that he genuinely has trouble discerning reality from imagined hypotheticals, at times, the emotions he feels in the 'imaginary' are incredibly real and vivid to him. He is 'forced' to live in that world as it is happening to him, so he FREAKS OUT, about it.

However like. To get kinda crazy... I think Omori would be good at edging. (to other people Not Avvy reading this; we have a general headcanon that 'Omori' as an identity still exists even in timelines where Mari doesn't die. You can read about that here, if curious.) I think Omori's servile emotions and severity is distinct and concentrated and he could take it all the way to the bank. But this is the guy who literally does have the resolve to stab their shared body in the gut for disrespecting Mari's memory and love. He's got... a little more follow-through, than Sunny. He is a unique facet of their ill brain.

Let's say, that if Sunny can't handle being kept from touching Mari because he's sensitive to a sense of denial/rejection... that Omori has, instead, placed so much value in his EXISTENCE being IN SERVICE to Mari. Anything she does towards, at him, is a GRACIOUS act being given to him, HER PIANO. Every time she chooses to touch him, he must be grateful, because she could easily leave and choose any other instrument at hand. He is so lucky to feel her press. *fevered, delusional euphoria* ... It's not necessarily that Omori would not be sensitive to rejection (I think, he'd be like, 'ok' *lays down to die*), but rather, that he can't take Mari rubbing her pussy in front of him as any sense of being denied something, because it's like. Thank you. For showing me your pussy. It is an honor to see it I am lucky to see it thank you. (So he's basically like, Divine merciful goddess edge edge drip drip guy.) I think Omori's reverence also means he takes Mari's gestures very seriously, in that, she wouldn't do this for/to anyone else, the exclusivity of what she is providing them is very very special, he will be good boy. He has fetishized their entire dynamic as being steeped in loyalty and devotion. Omori can enter Subspace and survive.

I like to think that for Mari witnessing this, it's very ah, bewitching... If she has already attempted a sort of edging scenario with Sunny and watch it be too much for him, she'd just shelve it in her mind as something to not do because Sunny cannot handle it. Perfectionist, doting big sis does not want to fumble and make her little brother uncomfortable-! She'd be a little cautious with being convinced to do it again, though accept if 'Omori' wants to try... She's accommodating, she wouldn't say no to it. However, as a result, I think seeing Sunny be completely still-faced, rigid, silent, and patient, would be like u-uah... Oh... it's... He's really... *like really processing that Sunny has 'another side' to him* This is serious huh... A-aha~ ... My insane little brother...~? 🥴 Haha *this is hot and sexy*

(This is a leetle bit of a tangent but I enjoy the fact that Mari and Sunny are two teens in a 90's religious suburb, and have no, real resources or internet to parse technical terms, medical terms... I like the fact that they'd be stumbling through this all and inventing a means to engage with one another and understand each other. There's um no guidebook to psychosis or multiple identities... It's just like... WOW. Sunny is... acting differently in sex... He is DIFFERENT when he comes right now. O.o; *has seen him come so many times.* Whoa.)

For more specificity, I think Omori would especially enjoy and delight anything where he is laying on his back while he gets stepped on. I think the boy does like tall socks/tights materials greatly, would love to passively lay while reaching, stroking, touching Mari's legs as she moves around, presses heel to sternum, against crotch, moves out of reach... Stimmy, really, to feel smooth spandex or nylon under fingers, continuous stroking up and down the shapes of Mari's legs, enjoying the curvature, the planes... This is really a boy you could step on the face of and he'd be like U.U about it. Would keep his hands to himself if asked, curled passive little paws resting on his chest. Hmm pleasant to think about Mari riding his face... Maybe for fun, at first sitting on his face with tights still on, having him feebly lick through the material, tongue scraping through tights to hot wet pussy beneath. *me writing this getting distracted at the thought of Mari peeing on his face through her tights* ................... Well you know. A lot can happen.

Naturally this would all be more of a 'late-game' circumstance, as it's contingent on Sunny communing with Omori and explaining this all to Mari, enough to experiment with 'fronting' and sex and all. I think this would all be necessary for reversing things and edging Mari, too! So that could soon follow, perhaps... Sunny and Mari have been fucking for a year straight and now it is time to get experimental yk.

On the flip side of things, with Sunny/Omori > Mari edging, I think Mari is naturally more graceful with this all. Comparatively to Sunny, I think she could handle being edged long-term, and would not 'break the rules', even if it was reaching torturous levels for her. We know Mari has a lot more capacity to be patient and well-behaved, and is more composed with hiding her feelings (never seen crying or losing her cool); she has more of a 'good girl' gene. She's capable of enduring more... I also really like thinking about that cut scene where Headspace Mari talks about how being afraid can be fun. I think she's an interesting girl lol, if this really is a sentiment she has inside her IRL, that something scary and intense can be 'fun' to experience. Being put through distress and made to squirm, perhaps even beg and lose composure, that's a very unique experience for Mari-! I think it is humbling.

Predating this, I think Sunny has in the past done things like, jerked off in front of/onto Mari's face, things like that, though it's not very prolonged or 'meant' to edge her per se. I think it's actually more about Sunny presenting this as a visage Mari would like to see, because, she's cockthirsty, enjoys the spectacle. Mmm yes please 😋 Also not unusual for Sunny to finish and for her to immediately take him into her mouth anyways, for her own enjoyment, even as Sunny is super sensitive and dying. A lot of stuff like that is actually more geared towards Mari-indulgence fhahaha, at least, it's the driving force and motivation.

If Sunny were to actually direct edging her purposefully, I think it'd have a different flavor to it. I think it'd adhere more to like... utilizing all known information of things Mari reacts to, and stringing her along by it. If usual jerkoffs in front of her are more about it being a gift to her, this would be more about tormenting her with it. And he has enough self-awareness to know that even Mari has a sense of expectation for him, that he will be weak and give into touching her quickly enough. So ah... it'd really create a sense of resolve to not give in, and genuinely surprise her, catch her off guard. To earnestly see Mari agog and wide-eyed... a treasure.

With the express purpose to blindside her, I think Mari would be guided to be on her knees, in front of Sunny, and told to sit still. She's very like 💞🎶💞🎶🎶 hum humm, smiles... She sits primly, hands on knees, watching as Sunny pulls himself out for her. Hm hmm haaa 💞, though she would get clipped if she tried to lean in to nuzzle, kiss, lick — a hand on her head, and Sunny quietly telling her "No. Stay still." She obliges. Still smiling though, still eager, is just like, alright. ^3^ Admiring him, watching him... complimentary. Sunny is very severe, all the while, but it doesn't dampen the mood. I think what will catch Mari off guard is when he finally releases, he doesn't do so onto her face, or pull her closely to swathe her mouth over, or anything, he just... Does so into his hand. Wrapped around the head, catching the streams... some dribbles out, but mostly no mess is made. Mari is like. "," *cucked from seeing it! cucked from feeling it!* Mournful, sad, kinda like a-awe... ah. Okay. Mmbut, then Sunny pulls his shorts back over, and pads out the room wordlessly to the bathroom. To wash his hands. I think this leaves Mari like utterly braindead for a second like nyhg.h g. huhg? Hm? Wh. Why. She's right where he left him as he returns, she's like... I don't think she actually has the faculties to joke or whine about it quite, just is like. 'Ahahh..? Sunny...?'

He merely urges her up, grabs her by the hand, walks her downstairs. Mari's fizzly and feeling the slightest bit of impatience, anticipation. Squeezing her thighs a bit. They walk into the kitchen — oh, he's in the mood for kitchen sex...? So particular — but then Sunny directs her to make him lunch. It's just like ah. [pause.] And yet her autopilot instincts pick up, she... goes to make him a grilled cheese. Going through the motions. Sunny observes her, hovers near by. They've done lots of fooling in the kitchen by now, but this is actually just being used to make Mari get a false sense of 'Oh-?' ... as Sunny like grasps her hips for a moment, rubs her sides... runs hands over her chest, even, while hugging her from behind. She tenses, waits... maybe at some point even leans over the counter, waiting to be rutted against, feel her skirt lift... But she would just feel Sunny's hand at her back, straightening her posture, silently getting her back on task. All very disorienting. Her face is very warm, chest feels full of heated air, pussy on fire...

It is ah, a little unfair of Sunny to be doing this all without any prior conversation or agreement, but fsr I imagine that when Sunny/Omori collab they kind of enter an 'all-or-nothing' mindset and like aim to trap Mari into something skdfghfg... The extremes... The rest of the day continues with this tenor, and Mari is, literally suspended with not knowing when it is 'over' and when she will get relief. I think the result is sister gets clumsier, more out of it... Kind of marinading in constantly feeling ready to be fucked. Drops things mid task... Sunny is still-faced and aloof looking. I do not like bored doms, so it's not that he is like, totally distracted/uninterested, but just maintaining his cool... Pls imagine aloof like sexy aloof lol. If anything, observing her very attentively, closely monitoring her behavior. Drinking in any little slip-up. It's all as interesting as he thought it would be. In mirror to her, he feels heat in his chest, heavy pulse... Swallowing a lot. This takes like all his braincells also, laser focus.

Peppered throughout the day, are moments where Sunny finally pulls Mari aside, shoves her panties, and rests his fingers inside of her, though doesn't move... Just driving her insane! For a moment Mari would be braced and ready to be slammed but nothing happens... He pulls out. Placidly sucks pussy wet off fingers. He's relishing in getting to feel her body be so completely ready and receptive, seizing, twitching legs, panties soaked through... The burning heat. It is simply potent to know what you can do.

Umm man thinking about how 'far' this can go, and I think it would finally like, be too much if he started sucking her tits... I think that's finally like, Mari, the very good girl Mari, who has been agreeable and quiet throughout this all, is finally like... Making sounds of pure agony... Drawn out groans, low, grating. This makes Omori&Sunny like visibly! horny! ... losing composure, huffing air out harder. Ouu! Sssounds of pain. Like you stabbed her. Mmmmm *stupid sadist brainrot*... Mari, desperate to see a pointed response rise out of Sunny, would perhaps cave and finally like paw at him, nuzzling her face to whatever she can reach, cooing his name. I think, a very desperate Mari — much like Sunny's frenzied brain when edged becomes aware he can MAKE Mari do things — she could be overwhelmed with the sense of, she could URGE him to fuck her, ahm. Like by getting on all fours or, leaning over a surface, beckoning, swaying her hips, calling his name... Hiking up skirt and pulling down her own panties! Spreading herself. Excessive motions.

This would be like god's ultimate test because I do think Sunny has never like succeeded in not IMMEDIATELY BOWLING OVER TO FUCK MARI in any instance like this like FKSDJGHFDJDG-SODGDFH GOTTA FUCK GOTTA HAVE SEX MUST FUCK HER. AND LET HER STARVE-!?!?!?? ETC. I think it'd be too much like a crossbow bolt through the skull to see in this format, umm, hm.... But it's fun to imagine various 'branches', like ones where Sunny caves and must meet her call. Yet alsoo...

I think if, actually, in particular, Mari was laying under Sunny, and attempted to roll her hips up towards him... while plaintively calling his name, I think this would trigger more of an indignant anger response. Not seeing her pussy could leave him some resolve let's say. Just feeling her body grind up against him makes him feel more like 💢 fj..g fh SSSEXY SISTER UGH... noo I'm trying to... 💢 No, the point is I DECIDE WHEN TO FUCK YOU-!! Like getting indignant about Mari not being fair and 'cheating' (even though he's exactly this petty...) and thus, reacting very primally, impulsively, reaching down and grasping her throat, or covering her mouth, like. B. Be quiet. fjkdkghf... Eyes very serious, lip threatening to snarl. This is like the, dom brain feels challenged, like, I DIDN'T SAY YOU COULD DO THAT... Don't like being challenged. Tempted. 💢 [severe voice] "I'll tell you when. To beg."

Though the cock is weak <3 and I think Mari's tactics are effective <3 and Sunny would just transition to humping her, pinning her to the bed... Still maddening, but I think relieving for her, to feel force enacted upon her like that. Hand still covering her mouth, staring right into each others eyes, if this were a doujin the lighting would be scary all of a sudden. Serious. Though this ends in a real, starts fingering her extremely violently, flips her and rails her while pulling her hair, leaves her bleeding after. Kinda deal. While Mari is scrabbling against the headboard and like brought to tears from all the buildup. She does indeed beg. and beg. and beg.

......................................................... ^^ hope that was. interesting.

[answered on: 4/5/2022]

There's been this HC I've kind of been percolating on that is... well it's somewhat funny, but, it also just feels 'right' to me. As always, a little prelude before I get into it:

Okay so, back in the old Omoriboy days, one of the base traits of him was that he was a hikkikomori that was always looking at porn and jerking off a lot. (this is so... endearing to me, that omocat like, made this OC that's loserish and yet so horny...) By contrast however, Sunny/Omori in-game are a lot more childish and almost stunted seeming, than Omoriboy ever was, and ah... Instead is shying away from looking at things as innocuous as a bikini image of Sweetheart, or a passionate kiss scene in a book he errantly glanced at. There's more of a childish since of "oops, uh, I'm not supposed to look at this stuff..." that Sunny expresses, even as a 16 year old boy... So I do think he is lagging behind from others, in a sense, and doesn't jerk off much, in general, if at all. Perhaps especially in the timelines where Mari is dead and he has been living alone for years. I think that Sunny in particular is almost too preoccupied with self-loathing and funneling his energy into escapism. He's out here being chased by contorted visions created from his guilt, not knowing reality from delusion, and blocking out so much of his memory that he's often confused and going throughout the day in a haze. It's not the environment to rub one out really.

Backtracking to before Mari's death, the ripe 11/12 yo Sunny, and... I still don't think he did it much. However, I don't think Sunny is like, consciously CELIBATE or anything, like, I don't think he has an idea of "I should NEVER jerkoff"... It's instead an amalgam of being a unable to even parse what he is feeling — he's just not good at that kind of self-reflection — and being self-conscious and averse to himself enough to not pursue it. Oh and also he shares a bedroom with Mari and does everything with her ssssso. Privacy is rather scant between them both. At most, I imagine this Sunny gets up to like, unconsciously humping his mattress in his sleep, or pawing at himself quietly under covers, but it doesn't 'go anywhere' quite. Getting hard might actually be like, stressful, tbh, like what if Mari sees it, or, if even Mom just calls for him to do something. No thank you-!! Life is hard enough with the involuntary boners, certainly.

All that being said, I think after having sex, it actually... Makes Sunny jerk off a lot! Lol. This is due to actually becoming more conscious of being horny even is... feels like... What is desired, what can be 'done' about it... I think also Mari hypes Sunny up wayyy too much about his cock sdjfhg... Making him feel a little TOO comfortable and secure about it, in a way. (I'm joking lol but...) So in having the security that Mari really likes it, enjoys it wholly, taste, smell, shape, all of it, will make Sunny go... Oh okay. So... It's fine, actually. *whips it out* The ignorance about social expectations and boundaries will actually lend Sunny a sort of... strength? Boldness? To not really worry so much about it all. He will just take Mari's word for it, and not have preconceived notions about how he should be handling his cock. Suddenly the nerf of sharing a room with Mari is gone; it's not a problem to be half-mast around her yk. We've gotten to a comfortable part of the relationship.

I think the 'first step' towards this is actually just inserting it into sex first, like, wanting to jerk off onto Mari's face, against her face, on her tits... Um. Really basic stuff, indulgent, all met with lots of encouragement from Mari, who is thirsty for it, loves to watch. She encourages him to get more confident touching himself and stokes this in Sunny; Mari reapts the rewards of sexy little brother getting really comfortable with grabbing her hair and moving her face around and directing how he wants things to go. Sexy. Hot of him. *cumbrain mari thoughts*

but mm eventually comes the gaps of time where they are apart, as Mari still has things like cram school and some obligations with practicing piano and such. And it has to be a day where Sunny really cannot... wait... for her... Body has gotten too used to immediate relief when horny, it's a problem now. He's maybe 13 now also, puberty is HAPPENING to him FOR REAL. It's like ssssigh. *reaches under boxers* I do think he would feel a simple, childish sadness that Mari couldn't be there with him, and that his come will... 'go to waste', humble sadness, like to nut in/on Mari always. But he can get past that, and... let the mind wander. Once he starts however, I do think it is a slippery slope, of like. Lazily pumping, reflecting on memories of sex, just trying to tamp down libido for a bit — to, FURIOUSLY jerking it, STRANGLING COCK, lifting HIPS OFF THE BED, IMAGINING MARI SAYING THINGS SHE HAS NEVER SAID. Jerking off SEVERAL TIMES A DAY. Having a . PROBLEM!!! CANNOT STOP. GRABBING MY COCK!!! AHHHHHHHH

In a way like. I think it's somehow narratively really sound if Sunny meets his Omoriboy destiny and starts jerking off like obsessively. It's time. To become your final form, almost. He's also had enough sex and gotten more in touch with himself collectively, that he can like, formulate cohesive fantasies. Desire things actively, consciously. Wwwanna lay under Mari's desk while she's doing homework, have her casually roll the heel of her foot against his shorts while she wears her nice white tights, hear her hum above him, hear the ambiant sounds of her pencil on a worksheet. She doesn't pay much attention. On and off, sometimes touching him, while he lays there, breathing heavily. *Sunny inventing being edged* and so on... It gets really next-level when Omori has discreet jerkoff fantasies, or when they both imagine doubleteaming Mari, it's like =,= ............. Ahhg...hh...

Though Sunny would eventually report to Mari he's been doing this, probably after only a few days of it, out of guilt and embarrassment, especially if — like, he's been doing this because Mari's been especially busy, and they finally have time together to fool around, but he's weak from NUTTING ALL DAY. The tragedy of it all. It's like *cries while telling her* fjsdghdhg though of course Mari is just like. OMG! SUNNY......... [internally] My little brother... He's just a boy isn't he? ToT <3333 She accepts this graciously. Actually ah, me and Avvy have explored a timeline like this, and, it's one where Mari and Sunny already have established a habit of writing notes back and forth essentially, after sex. In some secret little notebook, just detailing emotions and feelings that are difficult to say aloud (whether it be Sunny's speech issues, or simply feeling shy) — so naturally this escalates into Sunny writing down his jerkoff fantasies for Mari to enjoy. She's like. At first very endeared by it, natch, but getting into the more detailed, crazy, impassioned, and almost abstract ones, it's like... (⊙v⊙;) *into it still, but also agog at where Sunny's mind can run to* *... breathing gets a little heavier, smile wobbles* *she's. reading, detailed smut, about herself now* ... My sometimes creative little brother... When it gets into entries that are like several pages long. And also there being a whole note beforehand about, "sometimes I think about there being two of me", fascinating stuff. It really toes a line of being really visceral and also REALLY BASIC like oh my GOD Sunny. Wants to fuck my pussy and my mouth at the same time. JWEGHDJFKGLHJD.... *biting pillow in her mind*

Mari meanwhile... I do not envision touching herself very much, once they are involved sexually! Perhaps its her contrasting composure and patience that makes me feel like she's a girl who can really wait for the reward of sex... Gets so much out of touching Sunny directly and interfacing with him, that there's not much appeal in doing it herself... Perhaps she's had days where she has tried to finger herself, but I think it gets too frustrating fast, and she abandons it for the most part. And like. Admittedly I also think things are a little skewed between the two, and Sunny would, like get, really sad, to think about her doing it without him... And, they couldn't reverse what he does, exactly — have Mari jerkoff in front of him while he watches. I think he might. Fly into an entitled rage. About it. fjdghfhfjg.. but like endearingly so... Not able to handle being edged in THIS way, it's too torturous.

Though, I do think about Mari jerking off in the past, in her younger years, and I enjoy the thought... Fsr I imagine her having a handful of years where it was more prevalent, but eventually petering out, until we get modern day 15 yo Mari who perhaps doesn't do it much at all. I like to think there's an awkward couple of years before Mari becomes the graceful, composed, playful girl we see at 15, like ah... Being a rather happy and playful girl 10 and under, but around 11-13 having a dip of lower self-esteem and confident, just... Starting to fuss over things and become aware of her body. Having her first period and all. It's a trickier time to navigate... I think this is around when there are a little more boundaries set between her and Sunny, like, when they were younger I think nudity was more of a blithe thing, mutually, and they used to bathe together, etc. But once Mari passes 11 it's like uehhh... ;; Shyer. A little more covert, getting dressed, averting her eyes on Sunny too. Becoming aware of the world. And feeling like its her responsibility to do so.

So, in this awkward slot of time, I like thinking about Mari starting to deal with more awareness of her arousal, feeling accosted by it... Having to press a palm to her wet, hot pussy, after darting into the bathroom in the middle of a school day, feeling like TT;;;; whyyy... Imagine her really troubled when actually jerking off, and doing so in a face down position on knees, feeling really compelled, uncontrollably, to enter this position. Avvy's suggested her experimenting during bathtime with a showerhead and I like this thought a lot too!! <3 Love this all happening while sort of, having to really doggedly avoid her brain wanting to think about Sunny in some shape or form whenever she's doing it. ^<^ Lllike if she's not careful, the silhouettes will form in her mind of Sunny standing behind her, plowing her... Keep a girl on her toes. (Maybe this is why, later it's uh, imperative to become engrossed in academics and piano practice...)

[answered on: 4/2/2022]

I've thought about the aftermath of the day at the lake so often actually... Since what information we do hear about it is, devastating (the emphasis in how no one had ever seen Mari so upset, her collapsing on top of Sunny after saving him, being unable to go back to the lake ever since) — you have to imagine that this was no small incident for Mari. In fact, I think it disproportionately effects Mari, even more than Sunny, despite it being that he almost lost his life. He... can't feel the same kind of intensity about it because he isn't precious to HIMSELF... Actually, based on the Lost Library entry about this incident, I assume Sunny more or less feels like, embarrassment, about it, like. That time I really beefed it because I got scared by a spider, sank like a stone into the lake, sigh. Feeling like he has water in his ears for days after... Upsetting, but not earth-shattering, I think. Sunny's almost too good at the repression dance too, to seriously consider that he almost died, and what that would mean... He 'moves on'.

But Mari does not...

So all that being said, I always envision that after Mari collapses, cries, holds Sunny... that she helps him stand up and immediately ushers him home, arm around him the entire time — they're mutually clutching one another. Everyone else reads the room, more or less, and they assured Mari and Sunny both that they'll clean up and go home. Whatever toys, picnic supplies, whatever... They let Mari and Sunny walk home together, without interruption. I think Mari's instincts would be to flip into caretaking mode, and trying to be reassuring to Sunny, who is perhaps mostly shut down and quiet. Out of it. Though as Mari speaks, she is clearly high-strung sounding, warbling voice... She's trying to comfort herself as much as she is Sunny, talking about how they'll get home and get him warmed up, in a fresh change of clothes... Rubbing his shoulders as she speaks. It was described to be 'sunset' when this incident occurred, and it is likely the middle of summer — probably set sometime after the beach photos in the real-world album, which are late June — so the days are quite long, and warm... But they both might still be shivering, with their soake clothes clinging to their bodies. Finally getting home, I think, they evade their parents quietly and easily. Mari ushers Sunny upstairs and walks them both into the bathroom, starts toweling him off. Like, she starts with his face, fusses over him... She towels herself off enough so that way her hair isnt dripping wet anymore. Then ushering him to the bedroom, seats him on her bed.

I think Sunny is braindead enough that Mari just instinctively moves to help him undress. You have to assume this isn't even a very foreign experience for them, since they've likely shared a room most of their life, and Mari helped Sunny a lot as a baby and toddler... In a moment like this, there's not really time to be extremely self-conscious. She shucks his shirt off, helps dry off his torso. Maybe for discretion she drapes the towel over his shoulders and it covers him enough that she can just grab the ends of his shorts and boxers, peel those off, while leaving Sunny a little modesty. And he can finish toweling himself off while Mari tosses the soaking wet clothes into a clothes hamper. She prioritizes him entirely before getting to herself, wordlessly changing out of her dress. She's not facing Sunny for this, she's not thinking about it all so hard, but maybe Sunny does stare at her the entire time kkldgj... It's like. In the middle of all the dissociating the brain is like "Naked sister?" *stares at Mari's backside* This is of no consequence, just happens. Though perhaps Mari had assumed Sunny might get up and grab his clothes while she got dressed, so seeing him still bundled in a towel, sitting at her bed, staring at her with big eyes, is like... Oh ah, poor Sunny, needs my help still. She fetches him a new outfit. Maybe a thin longsleeve, worried he is still cold.

There's maybe an interlude where they basically go on 'autopilot' and go about like, getting them both something to eat, like maybe there's dinner leftovers to eat at, etc. They'd both be eager to fall into something familiar and routine feeling, though all the while I think Mari is uncontrollably fussing over Sunny more than usual, like touching him, stroking his head, insisting he not lift a finger really. Sunny meanwhile just kinda zombie-like shuffles around... He's maybe coughing a bit every now and then, lungs hurt from being filled with so much water so violently... When he was dragged out of the water, he choked and gasped and coughed a lot, and he's still feeling the effects. Sometimes spacing out and feeling, all of a sudden, below water again, water filling his nose and ears... Phantom sensations... He sways, unbalanced seeming, when standing. Mari stands right beside him, often, arm around him... Sunny is very permissive and instinctively clinging to her as well, even if weakly. Head resting on her side, hand clutching the end of her shirt or skirt...

For all this, I think Mari manages to suspend her brain for the most part, and just try and focus on the now. Sunny needs her, and she must be calm, be there for him. Good big sister instincts... Don't want to freak Sunny out by reminding him that he almost, died. But it's overwhelming to brush up against for Mari, every time, and she has to resist buckling... fight back more tears. Maybe every now and then she sort of pauses between an action, hesitates, as she is swarmed by the thought, but she inhales, sucks it in. But when it's time to go to bed I think it's really like, too much for her... Aching, knowing that the night is going to be so difficult, when the lights go off, it's going to be so... hard... to not obsessively repeat that SUNNY ALMOST DIED...

There's too much to think about. What if she hadn't reached him in time, what if he — sank too deep, by the time someone came to help them, he'd be drowned, he just... how could they rescue him from the bottom of that lake... The thought of having to leave him, wait until the, some, group of experts, fish his corpse out of the water, the visuals... I think it utterly torments her, makes her chest seize, makes her hand clap over her mouth. Hyperventilating... I think Mari immediately feels the weight of the thought of never seeing Sunny again, waking up without him, his... all his things, their shared bedroom, what would happen to his toys? Unplayed, untouched, and all his clothes, his... His everything... Never again feeling him shyly tug at her, never seeing his dark eyes dart around before looking up at her plaintively, asking quietly for her to make him a milkshake. Thhhe little things, everything, it all piles up instantly in her chest, filled to burst. No more mumbling, muttering little voice, no clingy hands, no tight hugs... Never getting to see him smile or laugh or delight in anything ever againnn... What would she even DO? What a pervasive question. And yet, no answer, she just shuts down, can't think about it... Cannot fathom it.

As a KINDNESS to Mari, I imagine that Sunny himself cannot actually manage to sleep in his bed after everything, either. They got into their respective beds out of habit more than anything, but I don't think Sunny really wants to sleep alone, nor can manage it. He lies there in the dark, staring at the ceiling for a while, before he... rolls out of bed, clumsily, and stumbles to Mari's. She's jarred from her misery but hurriedly, desperately lifts her sheets, and the energy she has infects Sunny, he crawls in quickly after. She clutches him so tightly, he nuzzles against her chest, tucks under her chin. A silent night of clutching and stroking the other. I think they don't sleep for a while either, but at least it happens eventually. It helps Mari to feel Sunny's living, breathing body against her. She clings to every sign of his body alive and well.

Unfortunately, due to both Sunny and Mari's nature of not externalizing their most complex feelings, I don't think there's ever a conversation about this... No words exchanged. I don't think Mari can handle broaching the topic herself at all...! If she can't bear to go to the lake anymore, I think this is just reflective of how Mari wants no reminders of that day. Unbearable for her... And Sunny is just, not well-versed in talking about himself, his feelings, at all, he lacks the ability to introspect... He also wouldn't know it is something him and Mari have to talk about together, exactly, doesn't think about how they're both deathly afraid of losing the other. Mmm... I mean it's crazy that, in tandem, in mirror to this all, Sunny is upset and struggling to keep Mari's time and attention, feeling like she is disappearing from his life steadily because of school and piano...

The timeline is brutal though. There are photos showing that they were going to the lake-hangout spot in March of that year, still. And as I mentioned earlier, it seems they were still all going to the beach and having summer swim-times as late as june 22nd. The memory we see in-game of the beach, where Sunny (in swim trunks!) walks around and delights in all the beach toys, and everyone's eating watermelon and having such a silly time... So I don't think Sunny has had a near-death experience yet, nor has a fear of water by then? Soo it's quite possible this lake event happened in late June/early July... I think this colors all events after that date so differently, really.

Sunny's birthday would be several weeks after that. I wish I could know Mari's mental state when buying him such a large birthday present, and preparing it in a big box and all? I wonder if it is at all, like... "I need to show Sunny how much I love him"... Her perfectionism urging her to provide Sunny with only the best...? And then, perhaps, the treehouse being built in August also feels like a solution, almost, to no longer having their special hangout spot by the lake. This naturally slots in as their new place to spend time together as a group, sequestered from others.

And then, the recital approaching in a mere couple of months... The pictures from September of Sunny clinging to Mari, practicing with her, the note in the photo album that he misses her, and has been spending more time with Basil since Mari isn't around... rgh. It's brutal-!! The set up for The Incident feels so precise, in reality. The psyche of it all...

I get sad that people think of Mari wanting their Waltz to be perfect as, perfectionism for perfectionism's sake... And not thinking of it as a representation of wanting it to be perfect FOR Sunny, for the both of them. Since there's so much baked into their respective instruments mirroring the other, and for Sunny this is 100% about playing FOR Mari... It makes logical sense the truth works both ways, that Mari was doing this all FOR Sunny, who she loves so much and almost lost. It's devastating that, in a way, Sunny then experiences what Mari nearly did, that day. She was, perhaps already coping with the idea of loss...

God does this game hurt. It sometimes all feels TOO thought out and cohesive. X﹏X i suppose omocat herself is a methodical perfectionist though, so... sigh. makes sense, doesn't it...? ＞︿＜

[answered on: 3/29/2022]

We sometimes look back on Memory AU, but no new recent thoughts, at least on my end. My interest in AT has been on the backburner for a while, not really having new thoughts about it... Eur. I've mentioned it before but I wasn't very happy with Distant Lands (I only watched 1 ep...) and for a while I was pretty put-off from AT as a result, kind of like it became a little bad to taste for a bit. I still love the early series dearly and really enjoy Finn and Marceline, and still am proud of my artwork for it, but I think I am a little stalled for new inspiration at the current moment. But pls never be afraid to ask more specific questions and poke me or Avvy about the AU; if there's anything you want to know, we'd be happy to talk about it, it's a very dear AU to us. In fact, asking specific questions might help stoke my mind a little more; I could tell you more exact details about things, as opposed to thinking about scenarios off the top of my head. (TBH, I feel like Avvy is better at this than me, even, so... I just encourage asking both of us stuff lawl)

As for obscure 2000's stuff... *face gets dark* Yes. I have various little 'obscure' things I like from the 2000's, especially manga/anime. When I was about 12 I discovered my library had a manga section, and finally began more consciously finding and reading new anime/manga, as opposed to watching whatever was on TV before. Actually, for the most part, when I was 10 and under, I mostly watched your run-of-the-mill shounens, like... I was casually watching Naruto, Digimon, Pokemon, Beyblade, Yu-Gi-Oh (original, GX+5ds), Bakugan (fsr got REALLY into. bakugan.) — anyways, you get the idea... But when I finally could pick and choose things for myself I immediately gravitated towards shoujo. So I started reading things like, Kitchen Princess, Kamichama Karin, Mamotte Lollipop, Pita-ten... and many more. I could not get enough of it all. I would have manga specially ordered from the nearby libraries, then come home with 12 volumes of a series, only to read them all in one night. Such an insatiable point in time. I remember having so much fun reading them too www...

Out of all the things I read, I would say I was the craziest about/for Kamichama Karin and Pita-ten. Koge-Donbo's art and writing style just really got to me, though out of the two of those I would only ssssort of recommend reading Pita-ten... I think it still holds up and is quite relevant to my tastes, tbh. Karin, not so, much, it is. A little more, crude, messy, and its sequel manga even moreso www... But nostalgia is nostalgia, I like them for what they are.

Anyways all that being said YUS I have watched Alien 9... I remember liking it?? Ah but, I have no clear memories of it, either, hmm... I would have to rewatch to become reacquainted. But from what I recall I liked it a lot, and aesthetically it is really delightful, I love the way the girls' proportions in their faces VERY much, and their distress is animated so deliciously. It's a valuable contained little OVA — oh, but it seems there was a manga originally? I'll have to peruse that... If only for curiosity's sake.