What if I discovered who you really are, and you realized that things weren't at all as you thought, yet I still wanted you close to me? I mean it when I say there isn't anyone I wouldn't want to have close to me, otherwise, I would tell you right now that I don't wish to have anyone who has crossed paths with me but is no longer part of my life around me, but that's not the case, it's very sweet of you to consider me one of your favorite people, surely, you are just as important to me, if not even more, but I cannot tell you that just yet because, as you know, I still haven't discovered who you are.

I never choose to distance myself from someone without a reason, perhaps, at some point, I was surrounded by chaos, with my world turned upside down in a mess that could have been fixed, and I acted from a perspective I never intended to show, i admit that because of it, I lost many people I considered important, sometimes I'm rather foolish, I don't think before acting impulsively, and people end up distancing themselves, perhaps you decided to put up that barrier because of my actions, and I am responsible for the way I behave, I'm sorry if I ever made you feel, in any way, that you weren't someone suitable to have close to me, you don't owe me an apology, perhaps I'm the one who should be apologizing, that abyss you say you're lost in, I believe it's being inhabited right now, because we're exchanging words, and somehow, you're not so lost anymore now that you've found me.

I see, being vulnerable or sentimental around me is never a problem, i can feel it, you express it so clearly, and somehow, it brings me closer to you, that balance in your personality is lovely, you're in good hands, I would never judge you, thank you for telling me, thank you for replying to me, and thank you for making me one of your favorite people.

My dearest rock star 666.

There is no one i could ever say i hate, i cannot hate you when there is no one my soul cries out to despise, so, please, do not think that i hate you i assure you of that, even now and thank you for saying you don't hate me either, i am sure you are someone i hold very dear, someone i can miss just as much.

If you do not know how to find your way back to me, i will not force you. But I want you to know that i do not hate you, and that you can come back to me whenever you feel certain and ready, you will always be warmly welcomed, regardless of whatever barrier you may have placed between us, i will be here, willing to receive you with the same affection and appreciation.