I like writing, it's always been something I enjoyed, and long before chat bots were a thing, I was a part of RP forums, RP apps, and whatnot. I like to put my OCs out there, but nothing particularly hits like RPing with someone else.
As far as what Janitor has cost me...Aside from being a drama-filled site where callout bots are more normalised than conversation...Nothing really.
It’s hard to say because when I started making bots I had 0 intention of ever making them public. I was encouraged to do so by my best friend who supports me in everything that I do.
Why didn’t I want them public? They were my personal escape. I grew up in a pretty hyper-masculine, conservative, and traditional family. Spent a good chunk of my life closeted up until recently. Making bots let me do things I couldn’t do in real life.
That’s what sucks about being a Daddy’s boy. Always trying to make him proud. Sorry for trauma dumping. It’s just I spent so much time always trying to do what I was supposed to do. Played almost every sport there is, got a girlfriend, did this, did that.
Making bots allowed me to say fuck that and be in my own world.
After coming out, I was able to take back my life and just be myself. I’ve got my own place now, a car, a job and almost everything I need to make it on my own.
Janitor’s never taken anything from me but did give me brief respite and introduced me to some very wonderful people who I will forever cherish.
Wow this is long. Sorry lol
um i make bots for myself, out of pure enjoyment and satisfaction!!
negatives: the whole comparing with others thing, drama in the community, and etc. j.ai hasn't taken much away from my life, i don't think.
positives: the people i've met and the friends i've made! i also think bot making has lowk helped me get my creative spark back!!
i started making bots just because no one was making the bots i wanted to use, lmaooo
for downsides there aren't really any for me, tbh, because ultimately if there are too many negatives for me or even if i just get bored of making bots i'll just quit. i do it because i enjoy it and i have fun, but the minute i don't enjoy it i'll stop just because it's not worth it to keep doing something i don't enjoy.
the positive of making bots for me is that it's just fun, lmao. it's a good way to kill time and i only make bots i would chat with so even after i finish them i can use them.
I still do bot creation for the fun of knowing people I love on this site come back to comment you know? Like I look at my comments the same people I love talking to are there to comment. To bond on our depraved kinks and like...find my community because straight ones kinda suck doodoo.
The main downfall of bot creation or even being on chronically on my laptop at all is the way my body is getting stiff, sore, and tired. Like since my back is hunched all the time it is now not liking that anymore and my sleepiness has increased. So when I go to bed fr and try to sleep my back just decides to randomly ARCH and keeps doing it if I hunch just enough in my sleep or like lay my head down on my desk.
Another one is my walking. I can barely walk anymore, why? cuz I sit in my chair with my knees to my chest for fucking 24 hours for real and when I tried to walk once my whole left knee felt like a vein was either caught, shrunk, stuck, or fucking shot. I could barely even STAND ON IT BRO. that is how fucking bad it was. Like...this is affecting both my mental, physical, and emotional health bruh.
and I love it (not the walking part tho I need to walk bro. trying to go to the gym damn it I WANT BIGGER THIGHS)
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