I too have an aversion to the gross and masculine, but I don’t think this is a coherent way to approach it. Disgust is not and will never be a reliable ethical framework. Women can be ugly and have gross voices as well

From your other ask, I recognize the impulse because I used to be very hateful toward the bepenised too so to speak. I understand the guilt and the hypocrisy of having one moral position in theory and then softening when faced with someone in front of you who is pleasant to be around or kind, even. But I don’t actually think that means your “real” self is the harsher more ideological one. Sometimes your better judgment is the part of you that can casually talk to someone and recognize that they’re not an abstract symbol of everything you despise. I don’t think that hatred is good for us. It feels as if you were finally seeing through something, but eventually disgust starts being unsustainable. The world is filled with horrible people and our environment encourages us to be evil, one must stay partially blind to this

It’s good to keep in mind that the average person we encounter is probably nice or at least trying to get through life without consciously ruining anyone else’s. Maybe the Twitter AGP you are disgusted by and the tgirl you had a perfectly nice grocery store conversation with are not as separate as you want them to be. That is uncomfortable, but it is also probably true of everyone. Most people contain something grotesque and are, to some degree, privately evil or gross. The internet lets people express their innermost desires fantasies and resentments so it becomes hard to know what is the truth of someone and what is just their worst self given an outlet though maybe the key is to reconcile with everyone being somewhat vile

I don’t think you have to force yourself into fake benevolence, or that you need to pretend you aren’t repulsed by what repulses you. But the question is whether you want your entire moral views organized around the ugliest version of a person you can imagine