Luckily now my tooth is in a stable condition, just in time because for Christmas I ordered a package FULL of food! It was a candy box for me and LOTS of American, Korean and Japanese snacks for my sisters ^^
Sadly the package arrived late, but it still arrived!!!
My sisters will make their friends try those snacks when we return in our dorm, they seemed to be extremely happy and I'm very very glad for it!!!
Also yesterday I tried buldak ramen for the first time, the extremely spicy ones that were... SOOOOO SPICY!!!! VERY VERY SPICY!!! But I liked them even if I was all burning XDD
And I tried the carbonara ones, but I just gave some small bites, I didn't like them XDD
In these days I'm eating all the high quality fish I won't eat when I'll be back to go to the cafeteria... mostlu squids, calamari and octopus, they are SOOO good!!

And, well, I mostly received money and that gift King ordered for me and that I LOVE IT SOOOO MUCH, that commission about my DnD character Sambukè, IIIIIIHHHHHHHHH!!!!

My sisters bought for me a shirt I really wanted, a shirt about Inanimate Insanity, but it still didn't arrive.

I didn't get anything for my parents, but I didn't have ideas. But I'll try to find some stuff to gift to my roommate ^^

Sorry for replying late but... AWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! Thank you soooo much, adorable anon!! I have one week to finish studying, I feel SOOOO NERVOUS!!!! I feel like I know nothing, eeeh XDDD

Btw, happy new year!!! I really hope it will be extremely wonderful for you!!! ^^

Awwwwwwww!! Thanks a lor, my sweet SWEET anon!! ^^

And, eeehhh... you want to know a thing? Yesterday I saw that person unfollowed me both on Baraag and Twitter, but still retweeted the gift I made for her and a gift I made for another friend on Baraag... but she unfollowed me... and... I made this thing made me cry a lot, I couldn't sleep, I fell asleep at 8 am... of Christmas Day... eeeh, I feel kinda stupid for reacting in that way, it's... silly ^^; XDD
Luckily there was someone to comfort me, I'm extremely glad for it ^^

I think it means that... well, it's over. That I shouldn't have hopes, I should just let go and... now I feel tense because this person and I still play in the same DnD campaign... sigh...
I just know I suffered A LOT because of this person, she even made me cry the day of my 24th birthday, treating me meanly and refusing to join my birthday party...

I lost SO many friendships over the years and I thought this was "the one", but my therapist told me I have to re-think about what I want from friendships and that the concept of a "tight" friendship can mean also it's suffocating, so it can bring others away...
That person, however, had a pattern of getting close to people to then... escape. It happened with her ex, that she sent a message to after years she didn't talk with him. I wonder if it will happen with me. That person should still finish for me a commission I payed 180 dollars for, if they want to finish it. I... today I was calmer, but I'm mostly in the "it's over" mood...

I really hope my therapist will help me dyring this period and to deal with those traits of me that make people escape or make people hurt, like me being pushy or me getting angry for receiving a no... I'm already aware of my anxious attachment, that I worked on and it's way less intense now compared to years ago, and I'm aware of my HUGE fear of abandoment.

2025 was a VERY intense day, but I hope 2026 will just be a... happy one, I need comfort and happyness more than strong emotions, I want to feel GOOD! And do more things and continue to work hard of course!! ^^

Awwwwwwwwww!!! Hi, extremely sweet anon!

Thank you sooooo much, I wish you a very wonderful merry Christmas Eve and Merry Christmas!!!

I spent some very hard weeks. I had to deal with a root canal, very very painful, I did another exam and I got 27/30!!! Even if there are problems on the Uni site but those problems can be resolved only ater Christmas holidays...
I also made projects for 2 different courses and currently I'm studying for a VERY hard exam I have on 8th January

And, things that hurt me the most, more than the root canal, what i considered an extremely close and important friend of mine decided to not be my friend anymore and she acts very cold towards me right now and I have to deal with her because we are in the same DnD campaign and, well, she treats others sweetly and this is very painful, especially because I gave to hear a HUGE part of my heart, but... well, I'm suffering a lot, having very extreme thoughts, I attempted multiple times to hurt myself but... my therapist knows, it's very very complex and I don't know how to feel better. A part of me just wishes we could be friends again...
I also ordered a commission for her, that I'll show later, because I really cared about making her a gift of her DnD OC...
I feel a huge void inside and I don't know how to feel better, I was so close with this friend of mine I even got a crush on her one year ago (my bf knows, we resolved that situation, VERY long and tricky story, but I'm extremely happy with my bf ^^)...

Working to be better, even if that wasn't enough for that person, it's extremely hard to work on something that is so deep inside me, since my very very early childhood considering how my previous therapy sessions with my psychologist went...
It's painful seeing a person you cared SO MUCH just... breaking your heart and just... having others, you are useless for them despite all the love you gave... it's an extremely extremely profound scar...

Oooh, well, I'm extremely happy about all the exams I did this year, some of my progresses, like me being able to have friendly conversations with my course mates and Uni is going well, hoping to graduate in Autumn/Fall 2026, on February, according to my plans, I'll talk with the professor I want as supervisor of my Master Degree thesis ^^
Also in the first half of 2026 I'll do my Internship in a studio that also works in Animation and I'm extremely extremely excited for it!!! ^^

And, ooooh, also in 2026 I'll join a new DnD campaign, always made by the same DM, Arabian inspired and... well... I'm excited ^^

I wish I could deal with the extreme EXTREME feelings I have in a way I won't hurt myself, some thoughts are very... violent and... hard...

Btw, happy holidays to you!!! Sorry for all this venting and talking, but you deserve the best!!! ^^

Hi! ^^
Sorry for replying only now, the situation kept changing and changing, but now it's stable and positive and I'll tell how ^^
Ok, so... on Thursday the student representatives of my dorm released an announcement: who had an emergency (aka who lived too far from the dorm, like me, my hometown is 200 km far from my Uni city and the public transportation SUCKS) could send an email asking the dorm to stay for the whole month of October, were some students would have been recolled to get a room in the dorm. I send the email, I receive NO answers until Tuesday arrives and they tell me that I can stay... for 7 days, then, unless I get called, I have to go. I felt very frustrated by it but today, TODAY, I received an unpdate.
I... Got my room back!!!! I can stay here in my dorm, I got the confirmation, so no need to leave!!! They just gave me useless stress, but I can stay here, so I don't have to worry about it!! ^^
Damn, in these days I had to wait, and wait and WAIT!!! Feeling very frustrated, searching for hotel rooms, I even thought about going to a monastery, but luckily I don't have to, I can stay here!

So... yeah, I'm happy!!! Thank you anyway for the advices, you were very sweet for worrying and I appreciate it a lot!!! ^^

Oh, hiiiii!
Oh, I remember! I'm extremely sorry for answering only now, lately I'm spending most of my energies studying for my next exam, that will be on Tuesday... the same day my Uni lessons will start, eh XDD

Sooooo, anyway... No, you aren't a liar for enjoying sexual stuff and seeming "pure" ^^
Each of us has different sides and you can't show to everyone your side interested in NSFW, especially with strangers or IRL friends unless you are close with them.
Outside I simply look like a very shy girl that doesn't wear skimpy clothes and is generally kind and doesn't talk about sex and stuff, while online... well, just look at my Twitter and Baraag! XDD
But also, seeming kind and cute and being interest in NSFW and kink aren't two opposite things! You can still be kind and look "pure" but also enjoy depraved stuff. There are artists that conceal and mix cuteness/"innocence" and perversion, there are people that are the kindest person on heart, that you would call naive and kind while they have the nastiest and most extreme kinks known on Earth XDD
So, don't feel ashamed to be a depraved kind person! It's completely fine and you aren't lying to others! Simply... some people wouldn't get it. Or maybe they would get it if you showed also that side, but it really really depends and I don't do that IRL, I prioritize my online stuff ^^
Each conversation and topic has its context, it's just... how it works. So don't feel guilty for it ^^

I hope this answer could help you! Sorry because it's late and sorry because it's messy!!!

Wishing you the best and giving you a comforting hug!! ^^

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!
I'm all blushy and happy and... IIIIHHHHHHH, you are soooo sweet, extremely adorable anon, thank you sooooo and sooooo much!!!
You really think that?? AWWWWWWWW!! I'm truly truly flattered, I'm extremely happy if I managed to reach that effect on who read it!!!

AHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAAH! Well, the holiday wasn't cheap, but King and I enjoyed it regardless, I hope we can still have other holidays like this next summers, but it depends, he should start to find a job and work soon... also this summer I could be busy between exams and my thesis...

Now that I think about it, I really had a crazy summer, between certain things my bf and I did, aahhhh... I can't believe less than a month passed from it...

Eeeeh, too bad I didn't bring my jewels with me in my dorm, but I wasn't sure. Maybe next time...

Yup!! My relatives and my bf were able to talk chilly, he felt part of my family, at this point my parents accepted him, I'm very very happy!!! ^^

AWWWWWWWW!!! Thanks again, really!! ^^

I hope I'll have new exciting things to talk about next time, I would like to do more things this Uni year, also I'll have internship and that will be an interesting experience indeed...

Yup, very very busy woman covered in books and notes XDDD

I hope you are having an extremely nice day, extremely nice days actually!!!! ^^

Oh, hiiiiiiii!!! I'm very very happy to see you again, extremely sweet anon!!! ^^

Sorry for replying only now, but I had some BUUUSY weeks and on Monday I moved again in my dorm ^^
For now I don't have a roommate and I'm getting used to live here again ^^
Also, of course still studying for my exam and I thank you extremely extremely much for that!!! ^^

Don't worry, not too personal! ^^
Uhm...

During this summer I had A LOT of beautiful experiences with King! We visited new cities, our fav one was Leuca, where we had our first trip in a boat! He even swam, even if we didn't have our swimsuit XDD
We tried new food, we went to new restaurants and we even eat together sushi for the first time in a very fancy place! It wasn't the first time we ate sushi in general, but we never ate it together ^^
We also tried very fancy pasta and fish dishes but I could struggle to describe them in English.
Oooooh! This summer also for the first time he joined my family during our annual HUGE lunch we have for the patronal feast of my city and he enjoyed the food my mom and my sisters cooked!!! And it was beautiful having him in my house all that hours, he even was next to me while I had my DnD session that day XDD
We visited Lecce to see a lot of baroque styled churches, we also went to the beach and in the swimming pool but we also watched anime together for the first time, finishing both seasons of Girlfriend Girlfriend together and finishing the first season of My Dress Up Darling and watching some episodes of the second season ^^

There were some, ehm, new intimate highlights, but I don't know if I should talk about them XDD

Also there were a lot of cuddles, hugs, reassuring words, lots of days we spent together and... OOOOHHHHH!!!
This year for the first time I spent a whole night with him in his hotel!! We spent the majority of the night looking at the starry sky, hoping to find a shooting star, and we even slept together! My mom took me in the morning, I couldn't believe it, it felt extremely good!!!

We also bought special gifts for each other, between jewels and other stuff, we tried new drinks, we drank more alcohol together XDD
We tried restaurants that made us wait A LOT, restaurants we reached by feet, restaurants with BEAUTIFUL views...
We also searched a lot between souvenirs because he really wanted some specific stuff to give to his mom as gifts XDD

Damn, I miss him, it was a very very special summer and now we got back to our lives... I'm getting emotional at remembering it and at looking at the photos... I really love him soooo much...

I hope my answer wasn't disappointing ^^;

I hope you have a good day and I'm extremely sorry for the delay!! ^^;

Oh, hi, anon!

Sorry for replying only now, I totally forgot!

I admit I also didn't know how to reply to you, because I admit that for me Julia was the best thing of the second season of the reboot so, despite the critiques and the possible flaws, I would still call her one of the best villains, especially compared to the previous ones. Justin sucks so badly they had to put Cortney mid season and she was extremely EXTREMELY annoying, Alejandro was overpowered and with few weakness and the writers eliminated contestants like Noah so he wouldn't have obstacles, Heather received a lot of immunities and when she didn't have an immunity somehow she wasn't eliminated, Sugar was just mean to Ella and generally stupid and so on... I recognise Bowie was very VERY Good in season 1, I loved him, and I personally Enjoy Heather and Alejandro ^^
Ooooh! Scott tragedy wasn't smart at all and Mal... he was lucky the others got more stupid or more naive, even if I can't hate Mal after all
But I totally understand why you feel in that way regarding Julia, she isn't perfect, but I admit I started rooting for her. Also having Julia's first defender as bf could make me biased XDD

But I thank you for saying your opinion and happy to see a TD fan here! ^^