this is gonna come off weird but my dirty fantasies inspire me to write! lmao. i’ve never written this much on a ship ever before. like at all. yes, i’ve had a few ships going on for the past years like markhyuck, taekook, sungtaro, etc., but i never really wrote a story about them. there’s just something about chengwei that gets me all the time, they’re like a magnet that keeps pulling me in and i see them everywhere i go, that’s how story ideas formulate in my head then i write it down on my notes bcs i’m forgetful at times 😆

chengwei for me operates on the r18 side and i’m a pervert myself (self-awareness is key) so i use it to my advantage but that doesn’t mean i don’t write stories that aren’t fluff and cutesy. i still do!

this was a long answer lol but to make it short, the surge of ideas that go through my head (oftentimes r18) gives me the sense of drive to write.