UHUHU THAT'S MY FAVE PART N SINULAT !!! i got it from the thoughts i ws having last mass ko !! madalas kasi i wonder abt other people's faith, both those na super strong and super hina. i myself is nasa gitna and it's the most haunting place to be 🫩 i see the ones who never left. the ones who turned devotion into debt (of miracles). but i also see some who turned their back because they were left in the dark. sa part ni nico, he lost the ability to believe that anyone stays (pertaining to parents) so parang he left the altar before the altar could "leave" him. there are people like him who thinks they don't deserve nice things because they're convinced that their suffering is the only thing keeping the universe fair. some aren't guilty while some are using guilt as a prison so they don't have to face the possibility of hope. pero kz it comes to this,, whether we are staying, begging, demanding, or drifting we r just souls looking at the same horizon to desperately figure out if we are still worth being found. for nico, being found might be the scariest part kasi it meant someone has to look at his mess and see his "betrayal" (talikod, at least for him it's called betrayal)

soafer gulo ng thoughts ko anon hindi ki maayos imst sorry medyo napa-yap din 🫩 thank you so much for reading and waiting! 🥹