Here's an old post with what amounts to an origin story I guess: https://socially.drinkingatmy.computer/notice/AqCS8VkLj7H8TFaaJc

And no, I don't recommend this lifestyle to anyone. Substance abuse is a life raft, it'll keep you afloat a while longer but it won't give you a solid footing. That being said I don't blame anyone for what they do to keep their head above water a while longer.

Whatever you do, don't get started on nicotine. That's the real bastard.