find what's left in you ★

jellys · 6mo

just binge read your nahyuck au im so so so obsessed 😭😭😭

oh my!! thank you <33 pleaseeee tell me your thoughts like how does it feel to read all? idk… i constantly think how the au is perceived from a reader's perspective. i've read-read the au or some arcs(? like 4 times and each time it feels different 😭

toki · 6mo

jellys · 6mo

jaemins message in 697 reminds me of it might be you by Stephen Bishop 🥹🥹🥹

yeah!!! i had that song on repeat all day and prob week lololol actually i was going to use that for a nohyuck scene but i thought i would be too depressing…

toki · 6mo

jellys · 7mo

heyy could you please link down below your completed aus?🥹

oh myyy sorry late reply let's see

test My boyfriend 💻💍: https://x.com/haekito/status/1898396449928348092?s=46
there's some extras under #nadonghyuck and i'm also planning to drop a pt.2 hahah
🤍 chosen nerd (affectionate) 🩵:
pt.1: https://x.com/haekito/status/1913847512420491722?s=46
pt.2: https://x.com/haekito/status/1964595287823110241?s=46
there's probably going to be a pt.3 :p
right path 💔❤️‍🩹:
nohyuck spin off of “friend” crush🐱🐰https://x.com/haekito/status/1923470869927534744?s=46

there's some others few tweets aus like
- traumatized ex (what emojis should i put)
- gym buddies 🧑🏻‍🍳 🩰 🥊/ brush my teeth 🪥🩰🦷 (still thinking about the name)
that i will develop to full/mini aus too hehe

that's all i thinkk

toki · 7mo

jellys · 7mo

jaemin from ur nahyucks au is giving rachel berry⭐

ohh who's that hahaha okay just googled the one from glee :O haven't seen it. actually jaem isn’t inspired in anyone lol maybe when writing his jealousy tendencies i validate his actions bc people in my life are more jealous than him lmao

toki · 7mo

jellys · 7mo

I miss nohyuck shoooo much therefore I reread chosen nerd 🤓🤓🤓

MEEEE i reread it like two weeks ago lol i actually pqrt adding scenes or how i would rewrite some parts hahaha whenever i think about them they’re holding hands and each other's hearts 💞

toki · 7mo

jellys · 7mo

Nohyuck au!! yippieee 🎉

yessss i was just writing some scenes of them and i'm too excited to get to these parts lololol but with my schedule and pace💔 i'm afraid of forgetting the feeling i'm trying to embody

toki · 7mo

jellys · 8mo

hahahaha I get it. yearning jeno is shoooooo cute

yearning jeno is all i know!

toki · 8mo

jellys · 8mo

tbh I love hearing or reading about how someone view the world especially authors because they're so creative and good with words and helps me view the world in different perspective. and your views on soulmate thingy is beautiful. andd congratulations for have found one in your life because trust me not everyone gonna met them. anddddd thank you so much for writing aus 🥰🥰🥰

little secret but when u sent the question my chest started to tingle bc i'm currently ghosting my soulmate hahaha i know ill text her eventually tho 🙂‍↕️

toki · 8mo

nani · 8mo

nada importante solo quería decir que amo los pequeños hints y el research que haces para tus aus, como lo de mark y la pizza de nueva york o los datos tanto de jeno/hyuck que han habido u.u

🥹 yeii t diste cuenta jajaja siempre solo le doy rts a info q utilizo en los aus! igual el mayor research es encontrar el tweet en mis guardados o sino pensar q alucine q jeno/hyuck/jaem dijieron eso 😭

toki · 8mo

jellys · 8mo

wait, I'm kinda curious. what soulmate is to you?? I mean what do you believe a soulmate is?? your opinion, outside au context.

the natural connection that will require effort required for the understanding. i know you asked outside au context but for the au i use what i believe from the reality, i believe soulmates is someone you enjoy conversation with. in the au i refer to nohyuck as soulmates and it all roots from haechan's words about jeno: “ Jeno understands me well, and no matter what happens, he's always the first to try and understand me.” for me this short phrase encapsulates love, which i believe is the process of wanting to understand someone fully, but staying and persevering even when you don’t. to love is to try. knowing someone fully is the goal instead of the expectation of love.

just like my hyuck! i also believe that being understood is more intimate than being loved. sometimes love can become a projection and they can love an idea of you, they can construct you in their head. that's why i consider this phrase “To be loved is to be seen” so true hahaha.

but being understood requires attention! so this other phrase from Ladybird (omg i'm suck a dork) “Don't you think maybe they are the same thing? Love and attention?” stuck with me. understanding someone requires effort. i think it's more invasive than love, it's knowing their diction, it's noticing little changes, it's seeing past their contradictions, more than the surface because to be understood you have to visible! but visibility is never under your control, you can't perfom, and now there's a perception, a version of you that exist outside of your control, outside of your understanding of yourself hohoho. INVASIVEEEE

and i think it's a version bc i think we will never fully understand another because we don’t ever fully understand ourselves. that’s what makes the understanding in love so beautiful. while being together, you learn new things about them, and yourself (kinda like my nahyuck too tho…)

i tried to express all of this on the nohyuck au actually but thanks for asking because i love talking about it.

Tmi: but i have someone i consider a soulmate and the whole reason we both agreed on it it's because we could speak to each other in a way we couldn’t to anyone else, because guess what? they wouldn’t understand.