hellohellohello this is an excruciating ocd-driven rant that I feel obligated to confess to you because I am mentally ill. for context I am the person who suggested that genderfluid renjun fic idea and also I praised you for the autistic renjun fic BUT in addition to those I was also the user previously known on x as "transjun" I think I sent you a dm a few weeks ago where it was like "come back you need to bring back renjun mpreg" with my attached image of the sacred renjender (renjun gender) expression chart but I just wanted to clarify that I have never actually commented on this revo until the other day when I told you that fic idea HOWEVER I have been lurking since before all those renpreg comments were deleted I'm assuming you deleted them because it felt like harrassment like "WRITE RENJUN MPREG!!!! DO IT NOW!!!!!!" so therefore I did witness all of the comments but not until AFTER I had already sent that dm so I saw the renpreg people come and go and at first it was like one or two comments but then whoever made them fucking kept GOING and then I noticed that after a little while all the comments were gone so I was like oh you were probably fed up with people demanding fics so you deleted them and then I started kind of spiralling like oh my god what if thefunboys thinks it was ME, x user @Transjun, who made all the requests and I was fucking MORTIFIED like NO PLEASE IT WASN'T ME and I was afraid of being perceived as this creep who has an mpreg fetish or something and you would look back in your dms and look at me and scoff "look at this FUCKING FREAK with the renjun mpreg fetish I am DISGUSTED AND ANNOYED!!!!" and the thought of being perceived like that by anyone at all ever even though it's the internet and everyone's anonymous was still horrifying to me especially if it was you who I respect deeply as a fan fiction author and dongren analyser because I really enjoy your posts you talk about dongren's relationship so beautifully and your fics are yummy delicious THE BASELINE IS that I was really really scared of being perceived by someone I respect as a creep with no boundaries and a pregnancy fetish. so I just wanted to tell you that. I considered dm'ing this instead but I didn't know if you would reply judging by my last message and in any case all the renpreg discourse is located here. if you couldn't tell by this egregious rant I have debilitating existential ocd and mental health issues which I alleviate suffering from by consuming my favorite pieces of media. nct dream, specifically renjun, is one of my three special interests. unfortunately the things I love most are also what torments me and sends me into unending psychological spirals and this is evidently one such case. I'm tired!!!! I'm so fucking tired!!!! but at the same time my interests are my lifeline so what the fuck am I supposed to do!!!! but I think I'm done talking now. regardless if you see this or respond, I will now choose to fade back into obscurity and anonymity while silently enjoying tweets of people talking about renjun's gender-ambiguous fashion. I have been Transjun and my rant is now over. thanks for reading and have a good night. cue the credits and outro music

FIIIIC IDEEEAAA feel free to steal WINK WINK- intersex idol renjun who is struggling with expressing his gender identity in public without toxic fans demeaning him for it is also dating donghyuck...their relationship is publicly acknowledged due to leaked photos featuring them on dates with renjun in feminine fashion and appearance (his face is never actually visible though so people don't recognize him as renjun)...donghyuck lies and says he has a girlfriend when in reality he's actually dating his genderqueer bandmate renjun who from the fans' perspectives think is just some random woman...then PLOT TWIST after some hot gay sex renjun becomes pregnant and dongren are faced with the dilemma of coming out to the fans with not only the news that they're dating but also having a BABY which the fans would assume to be IMPOSSIBLE because renjun's a man...right...? OK THAT'S IT I LOVE YOU BYE

I've recently noticed that Dongren have been interacting less on stage or at the fansigns or anywhere infront of the cameras rather than in private. Like during the promotions of this comeback or throughout all the contents and events that took place in November, they've barely interacted. Haechan's goofing around or busy flirting with Mark or Jeno or Jaemin while Renjun is almost always with Jeno and Jisung. And honestly? I don't think it's a bad thing at all.

Because 1. They went on a date recently. 2. There was a pic at the airport of Haechan ?caressing?? Renjun's face right before their date. And if they were having a fight, they wouldn't do that right? So why avoid eachother or try to be as "friendly" or "platonic" as possible in front of cameras?? Like Haechan avoiding Renjun's gaze during the situps. Or why there was a cut after Renjun called Haechan "jagiya" and Haechan seemed to be trying his best to keep a neutral face expression?? Why he keeps giggling about Mark but when it comes to bare minimum appreciation from Renjun either the camera just cuts or he's struggling about which direction to look (not to seem flustered I guess)???

I think after their possible breakup, they came to a conclusion of doing less fanservice and keeping their relationship private, because it feels more genuine that way. Renjun always complained about how Haechan is only affectionate on camera. He doesn't do that anymore but rather he flirts back at any chance he gets while Haechan avoids any affection on cam. Maybe it's because Haechan finally promised him to show him affection in its most "genuine" form rather than do it publicly which is always deemed as fanservice. Maybe that's why their whole fight was about because I remember Renjun complaining about it throughout 2022 and half of 2023. Then they had their probable break during 2024. And now something has shifted and their relationship has a whole NEW trajectory.

A lot of people are saying that Haechan is being tsundere now, letting Renjun chase after him. There are also theories that Haechan got back together with Mark this month, and went back to being "bestfriends" with Renjun, thus clearing up the beef between them. I wouldn't judge any of the theories because maybe they're partly true after all. Or maybe they're all just bunch of guys, acting gay and having fun with their bestfriends.

But honestly? The Japan date— (if not a sly trick set up by SM to push the ship agenda by sending them their and planting their signatures at the place; just a conspiracy theory) —kinda gives Dongren's relationship a whole different view and explains why they've matured up so much.

I avoid assuming things about people, but just this once, I'll assume that there's less public flirting between Dongren and more LOVE now. Some kind of matured and sacred form of love, that only exists only between THEM, and doesn't need to be displayed to the world as testimony— Because they are eachother's world and it's enough.