jia🩺 · 12h
literal na last words because that update fucking finished me.
una sa lahat, grabe. sobrang sakit siguro kay sean that he has so much love for volleyball and yet the thing that he loved so much brought so much pain, trauma and fear along the way. which is hindi dapat. something that you love so much shouldn't bring you that much anguish.
second, putangina po ng mga teammates na yan 🪁 🪁 🪁 🪁 🪁 ayan tig-iisa sila tapos 🪁 🪁 🪁 🪁 🪁 AYAN KAY RYAN LAHAT YAN TANGINA M PO BUMALIK K NA SA KOREA(ay male, iba pala un)
third, gosh super sakit that he had to go through all that at the ripe age of being just grade 7! when all he ever wanted was to experience and play volleyball. that shouldn't be something a child who had so much passion over something should be experiencing especially sa mga naturingang seniors niya!!!
fourth, i love u sean huhu. it wasn't your fault that people used the power they have to make u do things. you may have agreed for it because what would be the cost, diba? all your efforts being wasted, all your exhaustion being thrown out the window. i wasn't justifying him. but he was also just a child in fear of losing all hard works he poured and the thing he loved the most back then. even so, he still loved ely genuinely in the end. and that says about the kind of person sean is.
fifth, huhu i hope maayos nila PLS. awang-awa ako kay sean. IT WAS THE FACT THAT HE EAS A CHILD WHEN HE EXPERIENCED ALL OF THAT!!
sixth, i hope he finds healing. i hope he stops blaming himself for being young, for loving something so much he gets blinded by the people who used their power on him.
sobrang ironic para kay sean na ‘yung sobrang mahal niya pang sport ‘yung nagdulot pa sa kaniya ng sobrang daming bad experiences :( and kahit na nangyari lang ‘yun noong grade 7 siya, the fear and trauma lasted for so long.
it’s so sad that he had to quit, especially since sobrang laki ng potential niya and natural talent niya. i didn’t mention this sa story, pero one little detail to add lang: iniwasan totally ni sean ang court. he couldn’t bring himself to see other volleyball players and the court itself, kasi lalo lang bibigat ‘yung damdamin niya. sadyang si louis lang mismo ‘yung lumalapit sa kaniya para balitaan siya sa mga nangyayari.
mas masakit din ‘yung fact na tsaka na lang siya umalis when the team is getting better and healthier 🥹 the change of environment doesn’t erase seb’s trauma from what happened to him ☹️
no one really knew about the heavy things he endured, not even his former teammates na nandoon mismo nung nararanasan niya ‘yung experience niya with ryan 😣
i hope all things get better for him soon. he deserves nothing but happiness and healing ❤️🩹
