hi dear i know what u mean i used to struggle with this so much when i first started writing and a lot of my friends find it easier to write rarepairs bc ships that have a lot of moments are a little demotivating for writers to get them inspired bc it feels like you’ve already been fulfilled through canon so there’s no need to consume or create fiction of that ship (in a way) my only tip is to be greedy tbh. and it also depends on what ur definition of shipping is bc some ppl are satisfied with what happens in front of them without needing to turn to fiction and others like to be delusional and put their ship in situations. if u don’t want to lose motivation to write something u have to make a distinction between what happens in real life with ur ship and the fictional world you’ve inserted them in that is Of Your Own Creation. what keeps me writing is that i have so much desire to put soogyu thru things and build plots for them so even if they do crazy shit irl that makes me excited and somewhat demotivated to write sometimes, i can still whirl around and get immersed in that fiction bc there’s more stuff to build on ykwim? its a matter of u reminding yourself that they’re a little separate. them being crazy doesn’t mean u should be less crazy. and u get to decide if its worth it or not! if u care about it, why wouldn’t it be important to write? when a pairing is crazy i just need to (continue) whether by reading or writing about them more and it becomes a cycle of knee-deep immersion. if u don’t stop reading fanfiction when a ship has a lot of moments then u shouldn’t stop writing either ur issue is self doubt and that’s not embarrassing bc we all deal with it. and its totally okay if ur not motivated to create all the time i just hope u don’t give up entirely !!