nonnie · 4mo
If I may ask, I would like to hear more about your munbonding experiences. Before my discovery as a system, I used to call it a "synpath" but they sound like two different things. I also want you to know that you're not alone and I understand where you're coming from although it's different in my case. I don't remember any specific details but I think there's a long history of artists and their characters "coming to life" to them. It's interesting and I hope the munbonding experiences gives you a lot of comfort and doesn't freak you out too much haha.
oh man i'm so sorry for taking forever to get to this, nonnie. i thought revospring would've notified me (or i missed it). i know synpath ive seen used for kin circles in terms of 'i relate to this character a lot but i'm not them', but terminology is fluid!!
to me it's like ... my memory is horribly fuzzy in general of my past, but i've always been super attached to my OCs as coping tools even from when i was like 14-15 (so well over a decade now), i cant explicitly remember if my first main MAIN OC I had (which was my bleach fan OC) 'talked' to me, but i know my main OC after her did, as does sylvie now
i roleplayed a lot so i had that inherent connection to them anyway, and lived emotions through them, had myself influenced by Their emotions, and so on. so like ... in due time of writing them, they spoke to me in return? like i could easily imagine them conversing with me, or know what they'd say during roleplays as naturally as doing a conversation ... i didn't need to sit and think deeply on it. i'm also an only child and used to daydream a lot as a kid, so it kinda also took root from that most likely, and why i always thought it had a root in that
(at least until my close friend who daydreams even more than me said she never had that with her OCs and has to think on them even for her most beloved)
my OC before sylvie also literally aged and grew alongside me as i roleplayed him, so he kinda became a part of my own growth/history, had his own emotions and desires, and fears. a lot of them are snippets of me as well bleeding in (not like fully projecting but it's hard to not have OCs who overlap some of your interests/fears/worries, even if subconscious as well. even through writing/having sylvie i've learned some stuff about myself too).
so i guess it all kinda bundles into why those OCs have been the literal embodiments i see in my skull and can interact with, due to roleplaying, emotional attachment, and having parts of my own self reflected in them too so they're a part of me, as well as being their own thing too and entities. but thank u!!! it does help a lot to have words to put to things/experiences
