this is such a hard question because everything about this dude is pathetic.
CW://Nonconsent

If i HAD to pick....it's the fact that he has something that I have been referring to as the Clementine club (though he does not call it this)
Rafail spends most of his time inside either his own mindscape or the one run by the school he teaches at (as it is only legal to teach mind magic within a mindscape). When in the mindscape, sometimes less experienced mind mages have images of their desires manifest without their permission. For example, if you're in the mindscape and you're really craving a hamburger, it may just appear in front of you if you have poor control over your magic.

Rafail has been practicing mind magic for almost 40 years at this point. Imagine his surprise when, one day, after a particularly charged encounter, an image of his student, Clementine, appears in his lap, asking him probing questions about why she's there. How was she able to overcome the barrier of his incredible skill and control over mind magic? Why did he want her here this badly?

As Rafail tries to ignore these thoughts, more and more of them show up. Other than the first one, they all embody different traits about Clementine that he desires. I lilac have named them but he hasn't. I'll list each club member below in the order that they appeared!! Keep in mind that all of these clones of her showed up before he even did anything to the real thing.

Devil Mouse: There is the first one that basically reflects his inner monologue back at him. This one takes a goading, almost bratty role as she tries to push him to cross more and more boundaries. He stops needing her help eventually, but a lot of the very first boundaries he crosses are due to 'her' influence.

Whore Mouse: This mouse wants to suck and fuck all day. Rafail perceives Clementine to be desperate for his approval (and she is! but as a student) and this is how it manifests. He is most embarrassed by this one, as even he can tell that this version of her that is constantly begging for sex is not true to life. She is like a teenager's fantasy version of Clementine.

Virgin Mouse: As Rafail grasps the depth of Clementine's inexperience, he eroticizes it. Heavily. He fixates on taking her virginity while she is clearly frightened of him. This is the first time that he fantasizes about raping her, rather than just having sex with an uncharacteristically willing version of her. This one is very shy, can't make eye contact with him, and rarely speaks above a whisper.

Idiot Mouse: This one challenges him and questions him a lot, but not like Devil mouse. This one clearly thinks that she knows better than him. She sometimes looks over his shoulder and asks him stupid questions about his research. He will beat the shit out of this one--even more brutally than he ever does the real one.

Slave Mouse: Kind of an evolution of whore mouse, though both stay around. However, this one is his favorite. She is good, sweet, and obedient. She doesn't overstep. She knows her place beneath him. She readily admits to her stupidity and begs for his guidance and approval. She is happy to offer her body to someone so clearly superior.

Wife mouse: The last one and the one he hates the most. She openly loves him, calls him handsome, kisses him on the cheek, and talks about running away together. It makes him sick (because if she exists, that means he wants her to in some way). He keeps this one locked away the most, but will occasionally, without really understanding why, bring her out and use her. There's just something about that sweet, loving smile....

He keeps them locked in a closet that only he knows about (Mindscape bullshit) and they only exist if the door is open. So yeah

TLDR: The most pathetic thing rafail ever did is make 6 clones of clementine in his brain that he goons to before he ever makes a move on the real clem