Extremely sorry for replying so late. I didn't know you replied days ago.
Oh no. I looked it up, and why is it so annoying to find online? Total eclipse was easily available during quarantine.
I'm so glad you started Hannibal~ how are you finding it so far? The aesthetics are insane, right? There is no redemption arc, only what we call Will's slut arc! And are the dishes tempting?? Honestly, Hannibal's cooking asmr is a comfort thing to me. And him cooking all of that in whites - the audacity! Those blood sputters -elegant crimson arcs?

About the quote -yeah, it comes from someone who has suffered quite a lot. Rimbaud's sadness wasn't just teenage angst. He grew up in a repressive household with an authoritarian, pious mother, and his father abandoned the family early on. He poured all his rage and disgust into his poetry from a very young age. But he didn't just suffer, he chose to suffer for a reason. He saw his agony as a crucible for creating something new.
I have always taken it as a positive thing -knowing I can survive anything. I've taken weird decisions that have ended up in my favor mostly. I've got a good academic life if the emotional one is fucked up.
I'm still chewing on what you said about trauma having no age cap. That landed, maybe the 'threshold' i was thinking of isn't that things stop being unbearable, but that you learn to carry more at once? Or maybe you just get better at pretending it's normal until it isn't. Not sure.
-MirrorCrush