It was a combination of two things. Before all this started, I was borderline flat with barely a bust to speak of. I had notable hips, sure, but nothing up top. This was especially difficult to accept during my teenage years. I wasn't bullied for it or anything, but I felt longing and envy for something that wasn't there.

During those years I, as many often do, found my way onto the weird part of the Internet. I discovered the "hyper" fetish and various communities in it. Not merely 'big' boobs, but truly gigantic, back-breaking, insanely enormous boobs that could only exist in fantasy. I became enamoured and obsessed with them. If I couldn't have them for real, I could have them in fantasy and as big as I wanted.

Eventually I found that small handful of very brave people had attempted to reach hyper-like sizes through the use of risky breast implants. I was shocked to discover this, but that spark lit a fire which set me on this path.

From that moment I knew it was at least part-way possible to fill the literal void in front of my chest. I knew implants existed obviously, but not to the degree I'd seen in fetish art. Granted they still weren't the sizes I'd found a preference for, but "as big as your head" was still extreme enough to be tantalising.

When I became a self-sufficient adult and warning money, I made it my goal to become one of those brave people. I'd take convential implants as far as possible, and take the risky path of ballooning through unconventional methods. Over time I managed to follow this path and get a very notable bust. But as I grew, my mind would go back to those perfectly spherical, bigger-than-your-head hyper sizes, and I'd feel the urge to keep pushing.

It wasn't just the size I wanted. I wanted the shape, the weight, the struggle of living with them, and perhaps most of all, the creaking. I wanted to push this obsession so far that my body literally creaked under the strain of it 💦 to be so big I could actually -burst- if I'm not careful.

I've written about this in more detail here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/45685211/

Hope you enjoyed! 💙 Thanks for asking c: