a little bit comically basic what I was specifically referring to with that gag, but I'll give you a sampling of what I was going through... & you can look up whatever lyrically piques your interest.
I just... I had truly read something so boring, and needed to. to. to listen to DV boyfriend & murderer songs to feel alive again?!?!? ROMANCE thank you....

some are repetitions from the Harpoon/Ruki playlist, though. Oh well!!!! my embarrassing music *Gladion hand covering face pose*

Hilariously 'drowning girls' was referencing the popular Breezeblocks by Alt-J
Muscle to muscle and toe to toe
The fear has gripped me, but here I go
My heart sinks as I jump up
Your hand grips hand as my eyes shut
[...]
She bruises, coughs, she splutters pistol shots
Hold her down with soggy clothes and breezeblocks
[...]
Please don't go, I'll eat you whole
I love you so, I love you so, I love you so

while 'eating girls' was Cannibal by Jónsi
You've got perfect skin
Soft enough porcelain
White teeth, buck-tooth sinking in
I'm chewing cartilage
Chewing your carpet
Muscles, veins, and shoulder blades

You know I'm a cannibal, cannibal
I remove your breathing heart

You know it's out of love
You know it's only out of love
You know it's only out of love
You know it's only out of love

but other things in that rotation to heal:

Wonderful Nothing by Glass Animals
Wonderful nothing
You just want something nice
You just want substance
I just wanna cut out both your eyes
Wonderful nothing
You just want something kind
I want corruption
I think I'm the devil in disguise
Here's my state of mind
Give me destruction
Tell me I'm scrumptious
I'm a fucking delight

I come back in with a one-two
Sucker punch in the gut, here's a tissue
Truth hurts when it points right at you
Sit down now for some ground rules, thank you
Don't talk, that's it, just one!
Do you think you can handle that much?
I've just come back to life
I'm here, I'm your little ray of sunshine

This is Love by Air Traffic Controller
You're no good, you're no good
You could kill me and you should
I'm an idiot for thinking
This was anything but blood

On the wall, on the couch
On the corner of my mouth
You must like being the victim
You've done nothing to get out

Of this pattern of pain
Washed away by the rain
You'll forgive me if I promise
And do nothing but the same

This is life until death
Could be my last dying breath
But this is love, love, shut up, this is love

Handsome Devil which is originally by the Smiths, but I like the Parenthetical Girls cover ...!
All the streets are crammed with things
Eager to be held
I know what hands are for
And I'd like to help myself
You ask me the time
But I sense something more
And I would like to give you
What I think you're asking for
You handsome devil
You handsome devil

Let me get my hands
On your mammary glands
And let me get your head
On the conjugal bed
I say, I say, I say

I crack the whip
And you skip
But you deserve it
You deserve it, deserve it, deserve it"

Gallery Piece by Of Montreal
I wanna be a beast
I wanna make you proud
And play with your head

I wanna take you out
Make you feel adored
And buy you everything

I wanna hurt you bad
Make you paranoid
And say the sweetest things

I wanna help you grow
And for eternity
I wanna be your what's happening
What's happening

Got 2 Let U by The Knife
I got to, got to let you down
But in an hour, I will change my mind
I got to, got to let you down
But in an hour, I will change my mind

It is like magic to me
Making mistakes and be forgiven easily
It is like magic to me
Making mistakes and be forgiven e-easy-easily

I know she lets me down
But just for a short while
Then she changes her mind
I know she lets me down
But just for a short while
Then she changes her mind

she does it all the time
making mistakes and then I ease her mind

Careful Who You Dance With by Parenthetical Girls (but it's the Xiu Xiu remix I'm obsessed with!)
Be careful who you dance with
We're all reckless romantics
Why fight the function we've been furnished with?
There's no good way to say this

Go Long by Joanna Newsom
Well, I have never seen such a terrible room
Gilded with the gold teeth of the women who loved you
Now, though I die, Magpie, this I bequeath
By any other name, a jay is still blue

With the loneliness of you mighty men
With your mighty kiss that might never, never end
While so far away, in the seat of the west
Burns the fount of the heat of that loneliness

There's a man who only will speak in code
Backing slowly, slowly down the road
May he master everything that such men may know
About loving, and then letting go

Paranoiac Intervals/Body Dysmorphia by Of Montreal
Counting wolves in your paranoiac intervals
Nobody's leaving, nobody is off the beat
You shouldn't try to unpeel my Pavlovian bells
You should be fucking with no one else

Anyone but me is an antipathy
Anyone but me is just your enemy
Only I see you the way you want to see yourself
You should be fucking with no one else

You, you, you, you, you should be
You should be fucking, fucking
Fuck, fuck, fuck
You should be fucking with no one else

Claws by Son Lux
you've got your claws in me, don't you?
don't you?

Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge
I want to hold you close, skin pressed against me tight
Lie still, close your eyes, girl, so lovely, it feels so right
I want to hold you close, soft breast, beating heart
As I whisper in your ear, "I wanna fucking tear you apart"

Lucifer Rising by The Mountain Goats & John Vanderslice
Call me John the Ripper tearing at your skin
One day I'll pay for this, for now
Just let me in

Little Ruckus by Utopia Park (Xiu Xiu cover)
you'll never be enough
oh, you're really not that tough
to break your own bones
or to fall asleep alone

Young Throats by Parenthetical Girls
He's lifelike when the light strikes right
Though no less charmless otherwise
Surprised with where my interest lies
I tried to bite my tongue this time

[...]

Come on, let's get this over with
I dreamt of this in triplicate
Though trust must have its privileges
That just don't enter into this

Jesus Christ, look at the size of it!
The size of it!
Your lips clenched like a fist
What promises you wet them with

Brace yourself and this won't hurt a bit
(Hurt a bit)
And who could help but long for more than this
(More than this)
I crossed myself before I crossed your lips
(Crossed your lips)
And cling like hell to something much like this
(Much like this)

Love Connection by Parenthetical Girls (from Casiotone for the Painfully Alone version....!)
Woke up at dawn,
face down on the lawn,
head awash of what had been.
Pressed cheek to cheek,
fingers underneath,
soft impressions of your teeth.
Some hours lost,
and at such a cost,
stains and scars I can't explain.

So take my lip between your teeth,
and taste me by devouring

Oh Baby by LCD Soundsystem
Oh baby
You're having a bad dream
Here in my arms

Oh sugar
You came to me
Could all be a bad thing
Doing you harm
Oh oh oh

Oh lover
You run from me
We move like a bad scene
Shot in the dark

Oh, but please
Please wake me
But my love lies patiently
Please baby, please
And my love life waits for me
[...]
Oh sugar
Give in to me
You're just having a bad dream
Ringing alarms

Drilled a Wire Through my Cheek by Blue October
I try to stay on top of you
To hold your body down
Your shaking seems to hinder
Every grasp that I have found
Moving every inch around you
To defuse your private bomb
I stretch myself surrounding
And protecting you from harm
I use a wallet for your mouth
So when you bite, you will not bleed
I drilled a wire through my cheek
And let it down and out my sleeve
And now you're pulling out the best of me
Yeah, which never ever comes
This wire's all that's left of me
And it's hooked within my gums, within my gums

Trimmed and Burning by Built to Spill
Take it on and take it over
Take in as much as you can see
I can almost think about it, but
I can't arrange for you to see

Didn't know what I'm afraid of
I had to learn it from a dream
There's a light that never goes out
Burning a hole inside of me

Keep your lamps all trimmed and burning
Might be alarmed with what you see
I've agreed to always love you
But never enough to set you free