Saint Ballsotron · 7d
(I pressed send but I don't know if it actually worked, if this is a duplicate message please disregard.)
My head hurts, I believe this is due to a lack of sleep. It has been a while since my last message, feels a lot longer than it's actually been. I don't exactly have a plan as I am typing this, I typically talk a lot about unrelated stuff and things nobody cares about, and I presume most would find that annoying if I ever continued without acknowledging that. Perhaps I have low confidence, perhaps those around me believe themselves to be too decent to shut me up. I hate to make a message with just me being self-deprecating, makes it look like I'm just asking for pity. But I'm just spitballing, however I am noticing in this message I am being more honest about how I feel. My tie back to that tiredness. I like Zepa. I really like Zepa's voice. Thinking about Zepa puts a big fat smile on my face like I'm an idiot, and I won't even act like I'm ashamed of that. Am I rambling? Definitely. Doesn't matter, I'm also not going to worry about how I'm going to feel after sending this unlike some other messages so I can actually send it instead of deleting the entire thing.
im sorry for being slow to get around to responding to this!!
i honestly really like seeing these messages ^w^ maybe its hard but the more i see this side of you, the more i understand you and the more i come to feel happier around you
i think you're a wonderful person and sometimes your tsundere tendencies obscure that just a little
but i do like when you come around!
i think for the first point its tough because, sometimes people don't want to talk about that subject or don't know much about it, or it's not related to the topic at hand, but i dont think anyone hates you for talking or particularly wants you to feel guilty, so at least for me, its hard to know what to say in those situations
even if it was difficult to navigate in the past, and even irritating sometimes, there's definitely a feeling of a lack of presence when you're gone and when others are gone too
i'd like to think that everyone contributes to the atmosphere of my places in their own way
im happy you like my voice too, even if i think it's not pretty or too deep.. and im happy i can put a smile on your face!! i got happy reading this too :D
get some rest!
