i cannot overstate how motivating it is to have a beautiful muscular woman yelling encouragement at you for an hour, like seriously... ^^'

also the social aspect of it is really motivating for me. i am very extroverted in that being with other people energises me. if i was trying to do exercise at home or by myself at a gym or something then i'd lose motivation for that immediately. the structure of being in a group where we're all working on the same thing makes it really easy to connect with each other and the mutual encouragement from that is invaluable.

if you meant physical strength though then i could honestly be doing way more, like 2-3 times as often. going from being very sedentary (and post-hospitalisation), i got huge early gains. at the start, one pole class would leave me really achey for days, but for months now i'll just walk them off like they're nothing. part of why i'm so excited about being promoted is i'll be being pushed even harder and might start getting all that lovely soreness again.

in many ways my life is a fucking mess currently. i live somewhere incredibly isolated, and that combined with disability eating up so much of my time means i don't really feel like i'm living all that much - i'm merely "alive" at the moment. if i wasn't taking every opportunity i've got to be going outside and spending time with people then i would be at home spiralling.

so pole isn't something i'm putting in effort to keep up with; pole is one of the handful of things i get to do each week that are keeping me alive.