i like them conceptually in ships and such and i admit im no stranger to in-sys alter QPRs ifykwim #hellyeah. but im too neurotic when it comes to any type of commitment. i had a one month e-relationship experience that i had to break off because i genuinely started ignoring my partner for being "too overbearing" (normal closeness that mostly wasnt even romantic) and it was taking a serious toll on them (we're still friends and we agree it was a Very random episode in our lives however and i assure you he can confirm that it didnt get to the point of me being "abusive" if any of you are worried about that). tl;dr: im a Platonic Voyeur chud/an objectively bad person to have any sort of close relationship (platonic/QP/romantic) with because i dont like closeness and get really avoidant as time goes on (Childhood friends on here can probably attest to my. Sudden lack of communication for several months). I Dont Even Know if thats what you meant by that question or if i overshared for no reasonbbut #WhoCares #Lore