hi there. the root of all this was actually pretty simple. at first i was attracted to ryul and i felt ryul would be the type of boyfriend who is super deliberate; who carefully thinks everything through before he does something. then i came up with karama jusuf. kalau mara dari mana ya? tapi kayaknya orang seperti rama cuma pantas dapat pasangan seperti mara ngga sih? what happens when the solid, naturally pursuing archetype of a person who thinks love is everything it's cracked up to be comes undone for someone who is quite literally his opposite. someone who is love itself, but can't see it in himself - someone for whom the concept of love is a lost cause but is self-aware enough not to weigh others down with his pessimistic belief... haha. he will learn that what feels effortless to him is not so effortless for everyone. he will learn that something that he can give away so easily can feel foreign to others. mara, too, has his own lessons waiting. he will learn that being loved/in love is always a terrifying stroke of luck. that it takes painstaking work to nurture this beautiful something but only because this beautiful something is so important and dense with meaning. the framework may seem weighty, and very much daunting. but with rama by his side, does anything ever truly feel daunting?

(a little out-of-nowhere, but every time i think of mara, i think of the line, "penuh ganggu di dalam jiwanya / sambil penuh cinta / diam-diam berusaha," from one of nadin amizah's songs.)

soal writing style, aku bingung juga jawabnya gimana karena ngga pernah ada patokan apa-apa. i will let you form your own judgment about my writings...

apologies for the delayed response. thank you sender for the question! i had fun putting down my ideas in black and white :)