Of course I do. I sometimes feel like I'm not good enough or that I try too hard and just end up hurting myself. I sometimes wish I would stay quiet instead of putting myself out there just to end up being ignored or hated. It's like trying to talk to a brick wall, you get nowhere and you keep on trying but no matter how hard you try, you're the unfunny jester everyone loves to ignore. I don't like being a funny person, it makes me feel pathetic and weak, stupid even. I feel like the joke and the punchline at the same time. I hate that I keep trying to fit in and end up crying because of what a miserable ghost I am. It sounds fucking stupid, but I answer honestly and I hate it even more when people lie to me because they pity me or wish I would just leave them alone.