I always feel some giddy anticipation when making the decision. Excitement builds as I get the equipment ready. I take a moment to breathe and focus, taking note of my last fills so I recall how much I typically take.

Test the pump killswitch so I feel confident I won't detonate (💦). Once the pump is running, a cold shiver goes up my spine the moment the I feel the cooler saline. It's hard not to be excited, but I have to watch the measurements carefully and gauge how my body responds.

Creaking tightness is what I always go for, and it usually involves fighting through some burning sensations. When the pump clicks off I just sit there for a bit to recover and take measurements. Later I try out a range of poses and exercises to see how my range of movement is affected.

I can't accurately describe the elation and excitement I feel 💦 thoughts of "I shouldn't be doing this" and "this is crazy" get drowned out when I look in the mirror. It's always worth it 💙✨