it truly came out after hanging out with a lot of queers on the internet caused me to really analyze who i was and what i wanted, and in large part i came to the understanding that i didn't really yearn for any specific person, no fantasies really ever had a face i could pinpoint, just a vague idealized concept of "her."

additionally i wasn't really the type to think of someone and specifically at them think "awooga."

of course, this question implies a particularly strict definition for asexuality when it's very much quite the opposite. ultimately it means what any given invidiual says it means